my Story, my Book, my Life

2007-05-21T00:12:00.000+08:00

on sat.. class came early to skool and celebrated dorcia's bday in canteen before econs lesson.. the cake was really good.. simple yet tasty... haha.. yea.. played cards in the canteen for a while before proceeding to econs lessons.. had econs lesson from 10-11sth.. after which those involved in the college day left slightly earlier than the rest.. performing arts ppl had to practice their stuff while the rest and i went to canteen to play bridge whilst deciding whether to eat in skool or out.. the rest of the class came down shortly after and we headed to T-mart for lunch.. after that everyone headed home.. and those who had college day stayed on in skool.. apparently i was late for the meeting prior to college day and i was amazed by the no. of new faces i saw in the LT.. lol.. got my tie on and we were soon headed for the audi.. guess its my 1st time attending an important event in college.. thing was i didnt noe if i was seated at the right seat in the audi.. lol.. and i freaked out when i tot i had lost my tag.. lol.. college day commenced shortly after and it ended around 5sth pm.. had a photo-taking session and after that went for refreshments at the foyer.. lol.. for the first time i was having better-tasting food in skool.. after refreshments we went to meet up with the rest of the gp group and headed down to mk's hse to do the gp presentation.. watched a few really hilarious videos on the net before playing Topspin! haha.. finally get to play that game again.. felt bad not calling nic over to join in the playing.. had pizza at pizza hut for dinner wif mk and george.. headed home after that..

2007-05-12T13:52:00.000+08:00

this week has really been a wonderful week for me.. and its really rare for such a week to come by cos you never noe wad's in-store for u in life.. im juz really extremely glad and thankful that there has been this week in my life..

hmm.. first of all.. i wanna thank God for seeing me thru the very day (tues) i had bio spa and chem fac test.. really grateful for Him giving me the discipline, motivation, strength to persevere on.. and of cos good memory.. i managed to complete bio spa with a sense of satisfaction.. now hoping these efforts would pay off.. and oso for chem fac test.. having only studied for 1 hour prior to the paper.. lol.. hope can pass la that one.. lol..

y is it when i was in sec skool i was aiming for those As and Bs and while i'm in JC im contented with border-line passes?

i was really impressed by the strong class spirit portrayed during the track and field meet, everyone giving their best striving towards a shared goal.. we emerged 3rd for the 12x100m j2 boys category.. its not the medal that matters.. its the process.. its the team spirit.. the never-give up attitude.. the "lets work together" mentality.. i could really feel that close bond within the class.. yea.. 06S01 rox!! =)

thursday was simply magical

yesterday i got the chance to see the school's various performing arts group perform their piece for the college day during the rehearsal.. was rather interesting.. and there was a humiliating part where i tot they were going to call my name and it turned out that it wasnt my turn yet.. lol.. there was a change in the schedule lor.. and wad i remember rehearsing on wed was different from yesterday's.. ah.. wadeva.. lol.. went to play vball with the rest after the rehearsal.. vball is fun but im not really good at it.. sigh.. haha..

im down with a sore throat, flu, and cough.. darn.. its either the flu bug going around or im deprived of sleep.. yea..

i found yesterday's topic regarding Prayer quite pertinent.. something that i never knew and something i could really put into good use.. sometimes the basics are equally as essential.. it taught me how to go about saying a prayer and that as we pray more and more.. it will awaken the spiritman inside us gradually.. yea.. really interesting stuff.. i tot of the closest friend of mine when we were discussing something about praying for someone/something and having to wait an extremely long time before our prayers were answered.. basically we have to destroy the notion of an instant generation.. we have to learn to be patient and wait in faith as our prayers are being answered.. yea.. =) but i was wondering to myself how i was gonna bring this friend back to Him.. i know its not gonna be an easy task.. but i really want this friend to be saved..

anw.. i really count myself blessed to have had such a close friend in this lifetime of mine.. i mean only a handful in their lives ever find someone whom they can really relate to.. someone who understands each other.. a feeling thats exciting yet heartwarming when you're with that person.. someone you cant live without.. someone u wish u had known much earlier.. someone who feels the same way as u do.. someone u can never bear to say goodbye under all circumstances.. all in all.. someone who's ur other half...

i juz want you to know having you around has been the greatest gift on earth i could have ever asked for.. juz want u to noe.. i cherish you alot... =)

2007-05-06T21:40:00.000+08:00

sometimes life's cold.. full of uncertainty.. full of downs.. full of sorrow.. full of confusion.. but its really great to have a true and really close friend.. someone whom we hold dear to us.. someone whom we hold close to our hearts.. someone who shares our joy and sadness.. someone we can turn to when we feel so alone.. it could really brighten up our unhappy days.. and bring a smile to our faces.. =)

im glad i found you =)

and yes.. thats wad struck me out of the blue.. but its really true.. genuine friendship.. thats sth money cant buy.. happiness money cant bring.. ok ok.. im not against money.. but yea.. lol..

as usual.. im deprived of movie shows.. and im always lagging behind the norm.. yea.. lol..

bio spa and chem fac test on the same day.. shit..

2007-05-05T09:27:00.000+08:00

its really sad to know that almost half the year's gone.. that leaves us with half a year left of schooling life.. i mean.. to me.. schooling life has always been fun.. irregardless of the sad and down times.. but all in all.. when u look back and recall your past schooling life.. you'll realise that those ups and downs happened to make life beautiful.. its the rollercoaster that always catches our attention..

the As are slowly but surely creeping nearer towards us.. and as the As start to draw closer.. it hit me both left and right.. on one hand i know studying is not an option now.. on the other hand.. it dawned on me that in half a year's time we'll arrive at a major turning point in life.. where we'll have come to the end of the entire schooling life.. no more homeworks.. no more teachers' nagging.. no more fun and laughter times, small or big.. no more gossips.. much much lesser hanging-out time with friends.. where we have to adjust to the kind of world we were not previously exposed to.. im gonna miss schooling life.. some may tink its kinda too early to start fretting over this matter.. but well.. time flies.. how i wish when i was little.. someone would come up to me and say. " son.. life is unique and it only occurs once in a special way to everyone.. so make sure u optimise it to its utmost and stay happy always..." if u wanna live ur life to the fullest, now's the time to do it.. no, not now.. but ever since you received ur consciousness..

its when we're young that we can truly taste the sweetness of life.. the kind of fun we get when we're young and small is really unqiue..

they say as u age.. time speeds up its pace.. im beginning to trust its reliability..

and yes.. the pressure is building on.. common tests.. fac tests.. spa.. whatnot.. but its ok.. take it a step at a time.. no need to worry.. but i guess this is merely the tip of the iceberg.. napfa's also on the way.. oh shit oh shit.. apparently i tink my stamina has deteriorated.. shit.! gotta make the best outta this 3 remaining weeks to get myself into shape.. hope can get silver.. =)

friends.. yes.. its like when we've known each other better have we to separate again... this sux man.. cherish them while time still permits..

i've begun to start like a 3-day TV night programme.. first its after hours on mon.. then to brainiac on tues.. lol.. then onto planet earth on wed nites.. yea.. its kinda relaxing to take a break after a hard day's of work.. yea..

oh yea.. my hammies are like 8 months old alr.. ever since i received them for my bday present last yr.. yea.. dey're like so cute! haha.. i dread the day they become motionless..

ok.. now im gonna do a recap for some of the days in the month..

4x400m was a flop all thanx to me.. yes.. aiya.. shit man.. i guess im not made for long dist.. felt really bad letting the other 3 guys down after dey had given their all.. crap.. the same thing happened to me last yr for the 4x400 too.. juz that it was slightly better than this year's..

rugby's really gonna kill us slowly.. first wk we had rugby it was nic who was the casualty.. then it was me and peter the following week.. lol.. a cut at the forehead, a swollen left cheek and nasty nose bleed.. yea.. well.. im kinda glad i finally got the chance to play rugby.. always wanted to spin the rugby ball.. but touchdowns werent exactly nice.. lol.. eventually we finally got used to it cos we had to like really dive for the ground at that very second.. lol.. okok.. we learnt how to tackle too.. some tackles are really rough while some isnt that bad.. sometimes being tackled the "softer" way is kinda fun.. lol..

17/4 - we had fire drill that tuesday and there were ppl who brought umbrellas along to block the sun.. lol.. after maths extra lesson peter, mk, and i headed down to downtown east for a free scoop of B & J's icecream on B&J free scoop day!! the queue was madness.. lol..

18/4 - i knew how to do the chem quilibrium test but committed a careless mistake, sometimes i wonder wad deters me from putting in so much effort is the dreaded moment when ur efforts dun pay off, played bball for awhile then to volley squash then home

19/4 - sexuality talk with 06A01, apparently the maths relief teacher was oso e form teacher of a01.. lol..

20/4 - practised passing of the baton in light of upcoming heats, played vball and sat around to chat with class vball ppl and to see the 200m heats for guys.. time really flies.. it feels like today's tues and monday has juz passed..

thing is.. we werent eligible for the 4x100m in the end all b/c we din report on that raining day.. thats lame..

the mind is a really miraculous object.. it seems to have a mind of its own.. i started thinking bout cambodia which unconsciously led to photography and finally to road run.. lol..

22/4 - went for the 1st day of the 3-day kayaking course.. this time it was at kallang water venture.. new instructors.. dirtier waters.. new environment.. new kayaks (easily capsizable).. rusty skills.. yea.. thats was wad it was like on the 1st day of kayak 2-star course.. had a relatively long lecture b4 we soon hit the waters.. had to familiarise myself with the new kayaks.. happened to be the lucky 1st to capsize and i almost drowned cos i forgot that the spray skirt was on and i forgot to pull the skirt out.. so... i started struggling for air whilst trying to force my way outta the kayak.. and when i tot i was gonna be like knocked out.. the spray skirt came out in time for me to breathe the crucial breath.. yes.. my 2nd drowning experience.. humiliating and disgusting..

27/4 - we were supposed to run our 4x100m today but due to the pouring rain.. we had to suspend the heats.. but the dumb part was.. we din noe that we had to report to stay in the competition.. and thus.. to our astonishment and anger.. we were disqualified from the race.. darn.. juz like that! >:( stayed back in the canteen and played cards with some of class ppl..

28/4 - 2nd day of kayaking course.. this time we had lesser lecture time and more practicals.. started learning and practising the 2-star strokes.. some of the moves are really scary.. cos ur required to flip the kayak and part thereof.. yea.. but the moves were kinda fun actually.. we went to deeper waters compared to the 1st day and executed more moves before heading back to shore.. oh ya.. met joel, albert, and evan at the water venture cos dey were representing yjc in some dragonboat competition.. yea.. great to see old friends and see how they're doing.. people change..

29/4 - woa! expedition day! 6km.. 1 water bottle.. packed lunch.. from kallang water venture all the way to the CBD area.. pure kayak.. sheer strength and perseverence.. yea.. we hit the waters veh early once course commenced.. back muscles started aching half-way to CBD area.. but the rewarding thing was.. only with instructors were we allowed to enter the CBD area.. normal kayakers who rent the kayaks aint allowed to pass thru the 2nd bridge.. yea.. its really cool cos u get to venture to new waters and exploring the new scenaries.. only this time its from the water.. had to make sure the kayak doesnt capsize cos its gonna be nastily messy and troublesome.. assessment along the way.. had to ensure we did the strokes properly.. so the trip was kinda part pressure part relax.. lol.. its really hard to maintain the direction of the kayak due to the choppy waves.. but after a while you'll get the hang of it.. the highlight of the expedition was when we had lunch on the sea.. in the middle of CBD.. surrounded by towering buildings and being scorched by the blistering sun.. yea.. i mean how often do u get to eat lunch on a kayak, in the middle of a wide water body and relaxing on the kayak at the same time.. after that.. everyone was instructed to capsize and to find a way to get back onto our kayaks.. without any rescue.. the first time that came to mind when capsizing was whether i'd see my water bottle again not.. fortunately.. it floated.. lol.. and so did the empty lunch packs.. after restoring ourselves.. we journeyed the excruciating and punishing back to the water venture.. coming out of the kayak was simply shiok beyond shiok.. lol.. laid in the waters for a while before heading back to the classroom for more theory lectures.. the issuing of the cert.s spelt the end of the 3-day course.. yes.. relieved yet sad.. blacker than black.. lol.. that was the last time i saw the instructors.. yea.. but the fun hadnt ended!! mich, jz, and i went to eat good dim sum and nice tauhuay at geylang.. yea.. but i guess there're more nice food around in geylang.. food hunt!!

30/4 - went to dine at my uncle's restaurant in pasir panjang with my relatives in celebration of mother's day.. the food served were simply delectable.. something i dun get to eat everyday.. something new.. tasted wine for the 1st time in my life.. im serious.. im not exactly a drinker.. oh well.. a blessing or curse? anw.. then there were other special drinks and the desserts were nice..
i finally get to taste the newyork cheesecake and oreo cheesecakes.. lol.. top quality man.. it was so good i found it hard to swallow the cheese.. lol.. and then my uncle was like eh john smell and taste the wine so next time u know which type of wine to get with ur gf around.. haha.. he also suggested me working part-time in the F&B business.. i tot it might actually be an eye-opener.. so i guess i'd become a part-time waiter after my A levels.. haha..

1/5 - MAY DAY!! lol.. ok.. its juz another holiday.. anw.. went to meet up with amanda, joanne, wynne to settle some of the photos needed for the scrapebook.. and i learnt how to go to parkway shopping centre from home.. take 25 or 55 or 853 then change to 15 at eunos station.. but humiliating as it was.. i had to refer to the bus directory.. lol.. im not a singaporean.. yea.. haha.. for the first time i was using the public photo-developing machine at photo shops.. used the ATN (izzit ATN? the one that u can pay ur bills, buy movie tix, etc.. shit im really not singaporean..) machine for the first time to check vacancies for bbq pits.. window-shopped for a while, headed to macs for a bite.. then went to collect the developed photos and it was off to eat the special mango snow-kachang!!! wah.. yay!! i finally get to eat that.. and its really soft and melts in ur mouth so smoothly.. nice stuff.. =) sat around for a while before i had to go home while amanda and joanne continued to work on the book..

went to celebrate my brother's bday at Manhanttan Fish Market at PS.. lol.. its been a while since i went to a place with my parents thats normally patronised by youths and teenagers.. haha.. but the food was beyond-satisfying and really rewarding.. ordered quite an array of dish so each of us could have a bit of everything.. variety.. mmm.. i muz say their food has quality and standard.. even dad praised their food.. i didnt feel like john when i couldnt finish the food.. its juz not john to do that.. wanted to go swensons but eventually we gave it a miss and went home cos we were really filled.. oh ya.. its been a really really loooooong while since i got a chance to see the PS carpark.. and it has changed quite a bit.. with new signals at each lot to indicate vacant or occupied.. things change.. PS wasnt like this at all when i went there for piano lessons then..

fruitful day i muz say.. at least i didnt spend the day lazing around and doing nth.. i dread wasting my hols..

dad changed our car on monday.. it was like in the morning my bro and i were driven to skool in the old car (not old actually.. ) and we were driven in the new car to meet our relatives for dinner.. funny thing was.. my bro and i werent told that the car had been changed and so we were like dumb ppl looking for the car only to be surprised that we had a new car.. lol.. yea.. new car smell..

last but definitely not least.. im shedding all over!! all thanx to the kayaking.. now it seems like im suffering from skin cancer.. lol.. actually its juz the face and arms.. surprisingly my necks burnt but not peeling.. yet i tink.. there's 2 different tones of skin colour now!! argh.. put moisturiser alr still no effect.. i tink its beyond repair.. lol.. fair skin..! peeling and peeling and peeling......................

well.. and yes.. that sums up my blog entry.. :D

2007-04-21T18:27:00.000+08:00

well.. its been quite a while since i last visited blogger.. i guess i dun exactly fit being a blogger myself..

time really flies.. it seems as though someone juz pulled an april's fool joke on me.. but we're alr approaching the end of april.. darn.. this only means 3 things : im losing my youth, the days spent in school are gradually but surely diminishing, and the dreaded As r looming ahead..

once this year comes to a close.. that spells the end of school life.. where we'll never get the opportunity of being in close company with our cherished friends again.. the fun we had.. the laughters.. sure we'll still hang out once in a while but it aint comparable to those happy and memorable moments spent in school with them.. i've always enjoyed being a teenager..

well.. thats juz a gidst of wad's normally going on in my mind.. thinking about the future and reminiscing the past.. the mind is such a miraculous object.. and then i'll get emo and sentimental all over again.. ok.. wadeva.. lol..

the following weeks are gonna be quite a handful.. napfa, fac tests and other stuff to attend to.. oh im going for my 2-star kayakin course tml.. lol.. but most of wad we learnt in 1-star seem to have escaped the clutches of my mind.. lol.. anw.. think its gonna be slightly tougher but hope it'll be equally fun nonetheless..

i tink i've deteriorated in terms of my physical fitness.. lol..

ok.. going to make a new pair of specs!! i might come home with contacts.. maybe..

2007-03-04T20:26:00.000+08:00

ok.. today marks the last day of CNY 2007.. CNY 07 is never gonna return.. never.. juz as it did for the previous 18 CNYs.. ok.. call me emo.. wadeva..

and so.. today's date is 4-3-07.. nice date.. and a special one.. i hope.. and as this year's CNY comes to an end, i hope sth else goes along with it too.. and never ever to return again.. well.. at least for the first time i like goodbyes.. only for this instance..

2007-03-03T15:12:00.000+08:00

cant believe i slept for 10.5 hours last nite.. i mean evening.. shortly after i came out of the shower.. i soon found myself lying on the bed and slowly dozing off.. wanted to juz take a siester but it turned out to be a really good and shiok looong sleep.. lol.. sleeping is nice.. :) guess it was probably the weather.. lol.. and i skipped breakfast.. which made my stomach growl the next morning when i awoke at 5.30am to get some studying done.. econs was merely a few hours away! lol.. rite.. so i started shoving huge chunks of info into my head.. my sleepy head.. lol.. wasnt exactly effective tho.. lol..

ok.. so the a level results for chinese has finally been revealed.. and... i got... a... C! which leaves me on the fence.. to retake or to drop it.. on one hand im tempted to push my luck.. on the other.. i needa buck up on my other subjects.. oh man.. dilemma dilemma.. hmm.. im gonna weigh the pros and cons.. haha! how m i gonna break the news to my parents and whats gonna be their reactions? i've never been good in chinese...

seeing the many faces of sorrow in the hall yesterday somehow made me realise the utter importance of that bloody results slip.. that puny and dumb slip that determines the path we're gonna walk in the future.. argh.. i feel sorry for us students.. lol..

so is it gonna be psychology, sciences or business in the future? hmm.. im bent on psychology but im not sure if i'll make the cut.. oh well.. and im not exactly sure what i'd be dealing with..

bio spa skill CD on tues and chem supp. test on thurs.. maths faculty test on mon of march.. one after another.. ok.. im sensing the rising tension alr.. gotta get studying!! better make sure i come out feeling a sense of confidence.. but one things for sure.. the chem spa skill A will haunt me to the day im six feet under..

juz finished GP compre fac test and econs fac test this week.. another week of perseverance coming up.. at least i managed to write slightly more for AQ this time round.. and i hope that what i know and wrote for econs was valid.. lol..

caught borat on dvd on thurs nite.. lol.. only found some of his acts hilarious.. but the others.. nah.. shit.. i tink i might have lost my sense of humour.. cos i know i should be laughing my head off at his silly moves.. lol.. but i wasnt most of the time.. sigh.. i want my sense of humour back!!

random thought: bridge is fun!

after pe yesterday our class went to the newly opened extended canteen to have our meals.. was rather cooling actually.. lol.. then after which we went to have a bball match with another class.. apparently they offered us a challenge la.. but it was supposed to be a friendly match.. however.. the match wasnt exactly "friendly".. lol.. darn.. my stamina has deteriorated badly.. and i ended up having sun burnts.. lol..

yep.. thats abt it..

My Love

2007-02-24T10:21:00.000+08:00

My Love.. it's a really nice song by Justin Timberlake.. like somehow or rather, personally, this song has some kinda emotions attached to it.. like.. listening to this song somehow stirrs up this "feeling" inside me.. a feeling that i cant seem to describe.. prolly a feeling that one would feel while reminiscincing over the past... oh well.. and another reason y i never got sick of listening to this song is because of the 'smoothness' of the song.. hmm.. yea..

woke up 3 times this morning.. and surprisingly they were at 1-hr intervals.. first at 8am.. then i headed back to sleep.. and once again i awoke at 9am.. lol.. and lastly.. i really woke up at 10am.. lol.. thing is.. i had a nightmare last nite.. but usually my nightmares arent really scary.. but its more of a "chasing" scenario.. lol.. yea.. apparently all the nightmares i've experienced b4 were all chasing scenarios.. and i was always the one being chased after.. yea.. the funny part was.. i was incredably able to leap floor by floor down the flights of stairs to the ground floor as i raced to the door.. eventually i made it out safe and sound.. lol.. yea.. thats my nightmare.. crappy.. they say such nightmares imply that the person is under tremendous stress and stuff.. yea.. hmm.. or maybe i've juz eaten too much b4 i went to bed..

Bridge is so fun!!! haha.. that is if u really know how to play.. yea.. yesterday ken, peter, nic, mk, ho yin and i played bridge.. and it has been quite a while since i last played bridge.. and everytime i would bridge.. the game would appear rusty in my mind.. lol.. so that kinda explains y i played horribly good yesterday.. and its all because of beginner's luck.. i was really pushing my luck to its limits.. but strangely.. this beginner's luck kinda won me a no. of games.. lol.. surprise..

headed down to raffles city Plaza Market Cafe to have myself a sumptuous meal of buffet dinner.. together with neo, quek and kk.. yea.. the meal there is really costly.. and i felt bad having not to have paid for the meal.. oh well.. anw.. food glorious food.. i ate to my hearts' content.. yea.. oh ya.. and their signature dessert was this really thick durian-flavoured creamy pudding.. nt really sure how u name it.. but its a must try for all durian lovers.. yup.. there was an array of delectable desserts such as a really really thick chocolate mousse.. yea.. not forgetting the chocolate fondeu.. lol.. heavenly... then there was this huge salmon sitted in the centre of the array of food.. its skin peeled off exposing the bare meat.. oh my.. juz waiting for diners to sink the tongs into the delicate meat and tearing off a part of it.. yea.. but the salmon was cooked.. yea.. they have the raw ones tho.. cut slices.. argh.. forgot to take pictures of the so palatable food.... mmm.....

on wed nite.. family and i had steamboat dinner.. i wasnt expecting one though.. parents came home that day saying we were gonna have steamboat that day.. but anyway.. abalone was part of the ingredients.. mm...

CNY

Fri : went to catch a movie with friends
Sat: reunion dinner
Sun: went to visit relatives
Mon: went friends-visitation
Tue: went to visit more relatives and had another round of reunion dinner

well.. that sums up my CNY this year..

2007-02-20T00:19:00.000+08:00

embarked on the SA visitations today.. as usual.. like we would always every year.. first it was to iven's, followed by mine hse.. then it was to yong hui's place.. where we had our lunch and we watched some really funny yet dumb pranks done by people.. lol.. played nba live 07 on xbox.. at least a different feel altogether.. after that it was to mo's place where we munched and watched "the hot chick".. yea.. oh ya.. browsed thru the SA yearbook and i happen to chance upon a lady by the name of mrs new.. and the surname "new" being an uncommon one led me to suggest that she could well be mr new's wife.. lol.. gonna ask him if i met him again in skool.. we ended off our visitations at chin pin's place.. where we were constantly being served food.. and after which, i rushed to a relative's place.. well thats about it..

ok.. lemme break it down..

friday
cny celebration in skool.. caught "Just Follow Law" with some of my class peeps.. yep..

sat
had reunion dinner with my relatives..

sun
went to my other relatives' place and the flat was a stone's throw away from tpjc.. lol.. yea.. proceeded to the other relatives' side in the evening for dinner..

2007-02-10T23:39:00.000+08:00

i've skipped friday's cell and sat's youth ablaze consecutively and the thing is.. I'VE NEVER DONE THAT B4! or at least not that i rmb me doing so.. anw.. gotta wake up real early for ushering tml morning.. woa.. at least i've not missed church the whole weekend.. man.. i feel this sense of guilt..

went to peter's house today.. lol.. second time going to his place but first time taking a different route and going there by myself.. had only 7 hours of sleep.. din noe 12 could take u to lavender, bugis, clarke quay and kallang.. anw.. camped at his house from 10 to abt 7 plus.. and i overshorted the bus-stop by a few bus-stops.. lol.. so i kinda ended up at katong shopping centre (didnt knew such a place existed.. lol..) and so i had to waste another trip.. how kuku of me.. grr... and when i finally saw the ETONHOUSE building i felt dumber.. lol.. i practically had all my 3 meals at peter's place.. lol.. of which i didnt expect to have any at all.. yea.. after breakfast.. we proceeded with our "mission".. yea.. i wont reveal it juz yet.. otherwise it would spoil the whole surprise.. wonder wad his reaction and expression would be.. both his and hers.. HAHA! oh well.. ingenious idea of ours.. haha.. it took me and peter almost the whole day to do this "gift".. so i seriously hope they wont juz chuck it aside.. lol.. and its really fragile.. haha..

actually.. it didnt take the whole day.. cos of several "commercials" along the way:

only managed to see one cat today.. the kittens were all gone.. sad.. but he said dey had alr matured a bit.. so.. guess not that cute anymore la..

only today did i realise the rich secondary school memories he had.. he had so much fun with his sec skool friends.. as in.. really those very very very happy moments he spent with his clique.. yea.. and his clique really had a fun bunch of people.. or rather the guys.. lol.. doing silly stuff tgt.. to me.. this is wad life is all about.. juz letting go and having pure fun.. who cares wad ppl tink.. anw.. compare a sec 1 photo and a sec 4 photo and u'll realise that the person has really matured.. u can tell.. and den i got emo-ish again.. crap..

following that, we watched this really sadistic show depicting the freakiness of cannibalism.. basically the storyline goes sth like this: some ppl lost in the forest get hunted down one by one.. and the way the cannibals go around laying the plot and eventually chopping the body up is really... urgh.. blood and gore.. and of cos the thrill and suspense..

oh ya.. and there was this cup of jellybeans in his room.. the container has this like chart that shows the different jellybeans in the container.. haha.. quite cool ar.. and its from candy empire.. those jellybeans were actually quite good.. and thus we had jellybeans instead of popcorns for the movie.. lol..

tried out o2jam today.. oh my gosh.. its harder than it seems.. thank goodness im not intending on starting an account.. but it was quite fun.. lol.. started pressing the keyboard buttons frantically once the speed increased a lil'.. lol..

and the last part, i had to eat dinner with peter and his family members.. woa.. their spread is quite good.. not the usual kind of spread i would usually get for my dinner.. but its ok.. and it was kinda queasy initially.. yea..

now that was today..

yesterday..

took a cab with hq, mk and nic to ECP early that morning.. hated myself so much for not having given my best.. and its because dere was sth behind it.. oh well.. only i'd be able to overcome it.. but the thing is.. i wonder how long i'd take.. anw.. went to play pool at some building near parkway that day.. 5.90 per hour.. quite cheap leh.. haha.. but so far from my hse.. oh well.. in terms of pool.. it was kinda my day.. everyday seemed to get pocketed.. but on other days.. i'd be losing terribly badly.. lol.. my worst lost ever.. 11-0.. lol.. after that the 4 of us went home while the rest went to kbox.. went home to freshen up and its out for me again.. this time to steamboat dinner.. in the end.. i was the only guy who wore sth other than berms and slippers.. wah.. if only i'd known.. but oh well.. the food and company were good.. yea..

yesterday yesterday...

screwed up chem A level spa skill A.. and its only being tested once.. so much for me studying so hard and devoting so much time for skill A.. wad went wrong? was it becos i didnt have a watch with me? time seriously rocketed pass that 1 hr! when the teacher said 10 mins left.. i couldnt believe my ears.. DAMN SHIT LA!! no mood alr..

sometimes when life seems to be full of downs, life still carries on, be optimistic

no one ever said endings were happy...

2007-02-02T22:50:00.000+08:00

hmm.. its been quite a while since i last blogged.. anw.. cant believe we're alr into Feb!! oh my.. before u know.. its dec and we're stepping into 2008.. okok.. lol..

Monday
truly exhausted from spe that day.. we ran like 6 rounds + some physical cond.. lol.. but we had tennis after that.. come to tink of it.. tennis is rather fun after all.. haha..

Tuesday
had extra chem lesson cos we were going to miss out on 3 periods of chem thus the chem teacher wanted us to reimburse her the lost periods.. lol.. the same went for wed...

Wed
during GP lesson.. we were discussing on the topic of God vs Science.. hmm.. found it rather interesting.. and the funny thing is.. the "debate" happening inside the magazine between two people was kinda humourous.. cos u can really feel the two people talking in that really aggressive tone.. haha..

had urban orienteering for odac that afternoon.. turn-out wasnt so good.. oh well.. anw.. at least the j2s managed to chill and talk.. or at least those who were talking charge of the same station as me.. yea.. gotta find time to have similar conversations next time..

Thursday
felt really bad and humiliated during econs tutorial that day.. simply cos i havent helped in my group's work and the teacher kinda found out la.. another thing is.. im really lagging behind for econs.. yea..

got the college yearbook that day too.. and ms chua rewarded our class with snacks cos we made a good attempt in ensuring that there were no late-comers for our class for 3 consec. days.. yea..

had a chem faculty test that day.. basically testing about skill A and the fundamentals of org. chem la.. yea.. turned out to be rather simple.. for once in a long time i might actually pass sth.. lol.. yea.. thats how horrible i m now.. sigh..

highlight of the day: i made ice cream outta normal ingredients plus liquid NO2... cool.. NO2's like -200 degree celcius.. yea.. and once you've added all the necessary ingredients you pour the liquid nitro in.. and start stirring.. and stirring.. until my fingers became soar.. lol.. the ingredients that were initially liquid became like ordinary ice cream.. yea.. and i din noe we could actually take in liquid NO2.. initially i tot we were juz making the ice cream for fun.. but it turned out that we could actually eat the ice cream.. how cool is that?.. and apparently.. i found out that the teacher conducting this experiment was actually a physics teacher.. lol..

Today
GP lesson in the morning was simply so boring.. felt like sleeping la.. then it was chem.. had another short quiz on skill A again.. actually im kinda thankful for this chem teacher cos tho she may appear to be mean and nasty.. she's actually doing her best to help us.. yea.. and she's not exactly that nasty after all..

had Beep Test today for pe.. woo!! was the first time i ran for Beep Test.. yea.. quite fun and challenging too.. made it to stage 10 lap 3.. and i couldnt take it anymore.. after running both my butts started aching like siao la.. its like all the lactic acid build-up is there.. lol.. started stretching my ass but before long.. it started aching again.. and u can actually check your VO2 MAX using the Beep Test.. quite cool ar.. but i din bother checking la.. lol..

yea.. so basically that sums up my week la.. my last week in jan.. still cant believe its feb alr!!!

angel-mortal

2007-01-20T23:42:00.000+08:00

ok.. i noe i havent been blogging for quite a while.. but i've been thinking alot lately.. erm.. as usual im always thinking.. but sometimes i really wonder if what goes thru my head is useful or juz plain crap.. lol.. anw.. i havent really tasted the true essence of life.. like how i used to when i wasnt so exposed to the world.. now i really understand and appreciate my primary skool days.. when i was not exactly exposed to the outside world and where my world mainly comprised of study.. very possibly thats e reason y i could put my heart and soul into wad i was doing..

when new and more interesting things steps into ur life, u'll feel that the old things start to lose its interesting edge and u shift ur focus to the other more fun stuff.. and prolly thats where i started to lose my interest and passion for studying.. which explains y my grades plummeted..

its really hard if u have to support urself when u dun really noe how to face and overcome ur worst nightmare.. u're all alone..

somehow or rather the things happening around me havent been really registered into my head.. which is so unlike me last time.. and it was ocip that alerted me about this "problem" i kinda developed.. unwillingly.. yes, im glad ocip happened as a form of remedy for my problem.. and no, im sad that i missed out the entire experience altogether.. its seriously a pity.. and everything i look up at the sky.. it somehow reminds me of the day we departed for ocip.. we amongst the skylit clouds.. i couldnt feel wad i would normally feel!!! darn sad la.. i guess my life's like kinda stuck at that point.. yea.. im both glad and sad it happened..

when i was in p5/6, or maybe even earlier, i had this strange thing in my mind.. something indescribable, and e closet i can get is by describing it as black and white.. i dunno what it means, up to today, when i hope ive finally realised it.. man.. im in j2 now.. and that happened in p5?

ok.. thats was e emo part.. oh and seriously.. thinking too much and too deep really promotes migraine.. im serious.. but i cant help it.. u tink i wanna think so much? i juz wanna relief myself from the dire plight im in.. thats all.. i wanna return to life and enjoy the most out of it.. and at the same time being God-oriented.. otherwise everything that had happened which wasnt to would be completely rendered futile, in vain..

ok.. now to the earth part.. went to pulau ubin to cycle with the odacians on fri.. my 1st time cycling in ubin.. yep.. tot we could dodge the mozzies from attacking us cos we would most of the time be moving.. but.. in ubin.. the mozzies r the king of the island.. wonder how the ppl living in the island can tahan the mozzies.. or it seems like dey dun even get bitten liddat.. lol.. ubin's a really fun place to cycle.. the terrain's like so unlike ECP la.. pasir ris la.. ubin owns all la.. the terrain is simply darn shiok to cycle.. but of cos safety 1st la.. thank goodness dere was a group of cyclists who attended to our aid when someone was terribly injured.. yea.. started to rain at ard 6pm and it was really cool to cycle in the rain.. i mean like.. how often do u get to do that? haha.. oh my.. the downhills r simply irresistable la!! i wouldnt mind going back up juz to enjoy that few seconds of sheer fun and excitement.. now u dun get that in Singapore.. lol..

everything that happens in life is only fully redeemed if u lived it in that moment... if u lived it 100%.. otherwise it will never be fully redeemed..

life is constantly on the move, and one day we'll leave e face of the earth, so being too nostalgic isnt really a good idea..

tho things might be happening and i might seem to respond to them, i cant fully feel the expericence... i wonder who's has been in my shoes b4...

im torn apart, God and the world...... someone help me..... pls...

2007-01-02T11:40:00.000+08:00

1-1-07

woke up kinda late last morning... well.. guess i gotta say goodbye to late mornings alr.. skool's starting real soon.. talk bout tests... lol.. anw.. had hor fun for brunch.. and at the same time watched Tokyo Drift on dvd... woa.. shit man.. i wanna learn how to drift.. i mean.. in real life.. stepping on the brakes(or do they use E brake?) and frantically spinning the sterring wheel.. and darn.. the cars look friggin' cool la!! thats wad i call "zhng".. lol.. no seriously.. i wanna learn drifting.. cool.. lol.. haha..

went with dad to purchase two pairs of mizuno shoes at heartland.. first to world of sports den to sportslink.. lol.. so coincidental to have met ling jia and her guitar friend.. haha.. yep.. i gotta admit it im finally glad to own a pair of proper running shoes cos otherwise i'd have to run around with my dunks.. lol.. and there was like 50% disc. on some of the mizuno shoes.. saw this really flashy, bright orange mizuno shoe but unfortunately they didnt have my size.. oh well.. had to settle for some other designs eventually.. some say mizuno shoes r really good.. so i gotta see it for myself.. haha.. oh and i've learnt to prioritise comfortablity before design.. its like looking at ppl's inner beauty instead of their outward appearance... yep.. ok crap.. wadeva.. lol.. haha..

went to por por's hse after that.. kinda wonder it's been a while since i stepped into the apartment.. yea.. after dinner at her place.. family and i went to heartland mall to get one of the 2 pairs of mizuno shoes to be changed.. from a size 9 to a size 9.5.. so now i own both pairs of mizuno shoes.. yay.. haha.. lol.. so dad settled for the asics shoes he bought previously..

watched Murder 8y Numbers on dvd to call it a day.. the show's not that good la.. i would say.. watch it if u had nth better else to do.. lol..

31-12-06

went to meet sean for a game of pool at hougang plaza at 4.30pm.. and i felt kinda uneasy wearing jeans firstly cos the jeans were kinda too loose so it felt like it kept dropping and secondly.. im not used to wearing jeans after having wore board shorts practically the whole time.. lol.. that day wasnt my day.. lose every single game of pool to sean.. wad the... juz not my day.. moral so down man.. lol.. following that we went to hougang mall for dinner at pepper lunch express.. den sean had to go grab a new pair of earplugs.. hmm.. it took me quite a while to figure that we were kinda the last few customers for the day as harvey norman was closing shop for the day.. apparently cos of the new years' day eve thingy.. yea..

headed down to church for watchnight service.. but this time it didnt feel like the usual mood i had for every watchnight service.. i asked God for signs to help me move on in life and stop looking back at the past.. yea.. had recollections of the happenings in church in 2006.. well.. time really flew and b4 we knew it.. it was alr 12.00am.. had a fun time singing praise songs and that kinda marked the end of watchnight service.. went for supper at the usual roti prata stall after that.. went home and went online till around 4 plus b4 i entered dreamland...

for the last time.. i'd be typing "06" for my dates..

30-12-06

woke up to finish wrapping the so-belated christmas presents b4 heading down to church for wei cheun's wedding.. haha.. our much anticipated day has finally arrived.. yep.. then again.. time really flies huh.. yea.. been talking abt it and the day has finally arrived..

that day was the last day i'd be a leader in YPM.. sitting in room 204 and talking to them about the sermon that was earlier preached.. well.. you could say that it was really an experience.. an experience of teaching the younger ones.. yea.. 1 thing that i admire about them is their unity.. between the guys and the gals.. cmon.. they're only sec 1s.. and they've learnt to bond so well..

played abit of bball.. and in long pants and long sleeve.. lol.. smart.. and i kinda injured my right knee.. lol.. thank goodness there was the long pants..

went to pepper lunch express at hougang mall for dinner.. initially we wanted LJS cos of the cajun chix meal.. but we changed our minds at the last minute.. after dinner we went to play pool at hougang plaza.. well.. that marks the end of the day..

2006-12-30T01:00:00.000+08:00

oh man.. im like supposed to be in my dreamland now.. gonna meet up with neo and soh tml morning b4 the wedding reception to grab myself a pair of levis.. yep..

anw.. went for ogl mtg this morning at 9am in skool.. lol.. kinda a draggy briefing tho.. and we still didnt get the ogl t-shirt!! grr.. haha.. lol.. hope its gonna be a nice one tho.. yea.. topical tests postponed but i guess thats not really gonna make much of a difference now, does it? haha.. hwk and detention.. man.. dun wanna start a fresh new year being put in "prison".. that sux.. oh well.. gotta finish hwk by hook or by crook.. lol.. really hope orientation '07's gonna be a good one.. time to make friends!! haha.. kinda reminds me of my og days in srjc and tpjc.. yea.. well.. can u believe it? one year has juz gone by juz in the twinkling of an eye!! sigh.. so fast.. im getting old too.. i want my youth!! sad.. well.. thats life..

went home to slack until bout 5 sth b4 i set off to meet up with sean and eventually ken and eventually neo.. spent quite a long while at topman wisma.. got myself a plain white long sleeve t-shirt for $13.. haha.. cool rite.. think it'll be nice.. finally got wad i wanted but couldnt find at bugis.. haha.. oh and btw.. topman wisma has a wider range compared to topman bugis.. yea.. din manage to buy myself a pair of jeans eventually cos it'll be smarter to spent on good quality jeans.. thanx to all my fashion consultants!! haha.. without them i'd be lost.. lol..

headed to furama hotel tiffany coffeehouse for our buffet dinner.. $35.90 it was.. but it was worth the $$ la.. haha.. guess my eating capacity has dipped.. oh well.. hopefully a blessing in disguise.. tho i'd not be able to uphold PIG Inc.. sad.. my bad.. somehow i tink i controlled my metabolic rate and thus i eat lesser nowadays.. which is oso good la.. spend less $$ on food.. lol..

WEI CHEUN'S WEDDING IS TML!!! haha..

2006-12-27T23:57:00.001+08:00

27 dec

came home from the stayover at hooper's hse tis morning.. first time i've been to his house tho.. yea.. played soccer at the basement carpark at 4 in the morning.. lol.. played fifa 2007.. too bad he din have nba 2007.. oh well.. slept at 5.30am and woke up at 8.00am.. which oso explains my zombiness that morning.. lol.. bought myself breakfast at the hawker and went to catch a wink or two b4 sean came knocking on my door with my lunch.. lol.. after which went to church to do some arranging for wei quan's upcoming wedding in church.. yup.. tot we could finish everything by 3pm.. but turns out we ended at 4.. oh well.. headed down to bugis to grab new threads.. first to freshbox den to topman and finally to bugis street.. bought 2 tees and 1 polo.. yea.. wanted to buy this plain white long sleeve tee but there wasnt my size.. crap.. and so cheap somemore.. wah.. kk.. nvm.. went to long john's for dinner and tried the grilled cajun chix with rice.. woa.. im switching to LJS's chix instead of their fish.. lol.. and that kinda marks the end of my day..

26 dec

woke up to get myself ready for table tennis trng that morning.. had breakfast at the market and the prawn mee dere was really not bad.. when i arrived at skool.. it was pouring heavily and out of curiosity i went to the hall to have a look.. only saw the badminton ppl there.. called clement up to ask whether got trng and to my horror.. there wasnt.. lol.. quickly called dad to return to skool to pick me up.. fortunately he hadnt gone far.. phew..

returned home to have a good 2 hours sleep.. woke up and caught collateral damage on dvd.. the show's bought this good-natured taxi driver who's been ruled over by some top-notch killer.. lol.. put both worlds tgt and u get havoc.. well.. basically the taxi driver had to compromise his standards due to the killer but eventually he held onto his standards and killed the killer.. who was so close to accomplishing his mission.. hmm.. interesting movie i muz say.. but kinda sian.. lol..

headed down to mrs low's place all the way at boon lay station for the 4sa gathering.. due to the rain.. the main ended up cooking for us instead of having a bbq.. sat around and had small chats here and dere.. some left earlier than the others.. and eventually the last batch of us left..

headed to hooper's place with ma after that at novena.. fortunately we managed to catch the last train..

25 dec

called sean, neo and ken up in the morning to ask them whether they wanted to accompany me to go shopping.. since my parents wanted to visit some relative in sengkang.. they dropped me off at compass point to go shop.. really glad they sponsered me quite some cash for shopping.. felt quite uneasy during the first time i went shopping.. cos i dun shop.. lol.. and that was kinda my first few times shoppin.. lol.. after finding nothing to my liking.. sean and i went to my place to slack for a while but b4 that we went to heartland mall to shop for abit.. bought myself my 2nd pair of jeans.. lol.. ken and neo went with 2 other ppl to watch death note 2.. went home to do some wrapping.. yea.. went to ps later and had dinner at LJS.. went to meet up with the others after their show.. and we walked to orchard from ps.. we walked a part of orchard that nite and the place was so well-decorated.. saw statues depicting christmas along the way.. and i oso noticed Bible verses on buildings.. cool.. haha.. bought myself my 3rd pair of jeans at S&K..

24 dec

had lunch at chicago steakhouse at cine.. they had the lunch promotion so it was kinda wad we needed.. window shopped for a while and after that they decided to stayover at neo's hse.. eventually i din go.. and i heard he became drunk.. lol..

23 dec

love letter day! this was THE day that the youths and everyone were looking forward to.. it finally came.. went to church at 1pm to set up the sausage and cheese stall.. woot.. food... lol.. fortunately there were ppl around to help out with the station.. the musical was really touching.. and this time round it was better than the other musicals over the past years.. yea.. talented ppl we have in church.. as ppl handed me christmas prezzies.. i felt so bad not returning one.. no time to buy this year.. but i'll get sth tho.. yep.. went to The Cathay near PS and played nba 2K7 on the xbox.. woa.. the graphics r so good man! and the game has become so realistic.. as compared to 2005/2006.. couldnt decide on where to have dinner and eventually we ate at pasta mania..

time really flies... how i wish it would stop or slow down... sigh...

2006-12-23T00:25:00.000+08:00

went to lala's hse after ogl course to meet up with the cell after they had gone for their carolling.. heard they kinda had a hard time singing the chinese songs.. haha.. but anw.. i believe they have done a good job and have enjoyed themselves nonetheless..

helped myself to 2 slices of nice chocolate fudge cake of which whom i have yet to know who bought it.. lol.. it was really nice tho.. had a small glass of sparkling juice.. there was quite a crowd.. glad that most of them made it.. yea.. chatted with them for a bit.. and after that we played cards.. and before long some had to make a move thus sharon and james gave us each our christmas present.. my 1st christmas present! lol.. haha.. tis yr got no time to go shop for prezzies.. oh well.. we'll see how it goes then..

left her place at ard 11.45pm.. and i got to play bridge.. :)

2006-12-22T22:23:00.000+08:00

well.. wad can i say.. 3 days it has been.. and time simply flew.. the fun.. new friends.. lotsa laughter.. gonna miss all of these.. sigh.. another good thing has come to an end.. ogl course was really a period of sheer fun and laughter.. its been an experience.. really glad to have made new friends as well as to see some ocip ppl in ogl course!! :)

well.. here's a recap of the events that occurred thruout the past 3 fruitful days...

Day 1
Briefing
0800-0830
Hall
Ice breaking
0830-0930
Hall
College song
0930-1000
Hall
Break
1000-1030
Canteen
Mass dance + college cheer
1030-1230
Hall
Lunch
1230-1330
Canteen
Cheers
1330-1430
Hall
Dry games
1430-1700
Field
Debrief
1700-1730
Hall
Home sweet home

Day 2

Briefing on college tour
0800-0830
Hall
Mass dance
0830-0930
Hall
Break
0930-1000
Canteen
Competition (Mass dance + cheers)
1000-1100
Hall
Lunch
1100-1200
Canteen
Flags making
1200-1400
Hall
Wet games
1400-1700
Field
Debrief
1700-1730
Hall
Home sweet home

Day 3

Mass dance + college cheer & song
0800-1030
Hall
Break
1030-1100
Canteen
Campfire item
1100-1230
Amphitheatre. Wet weather: hall
Lunch + interaction + prayers for muslim students
1230-1430
Canteen
Wet games
1430-1630
Field
Dinner + campfire item
1630-1830
Canteen + Hall
Campfire
1830-2100
Hall
Home sweet home

and my fellow sparrows...

Muhammad Faisal
06S25
Ikmal Hisharm
06S25
Abdul Muhaimin
06S25
Muhammad Sadiq
06A02
Victor Seng
06S28
Darryl Leo
06S19
Elizabeth Tan
06S32
Woon Yu Ling
06S20
How Xue Ling
06S06
Yap Shi Rui
06S23
Emmanuel Chee
06S16
Soo Jia Qing
06S07
Koh Aik Ying
06S11
Li Chi Ling
06S11
Marilyn Tan
06S11
John Ho
06S01
Wong Seng Juong
06S01
Tsang Wing Hang
06S04

GO JACK SPARROW!!!

the eyes of the sparrow are watching...

2006-12-21T18:50:00.000+08:00

ok.. i figured i havent blogged for sunday's... here goes..

woke up early that morning to have breakfast with sean at macs b4 going to church for ushering.. well this time we had 2 new-comers who joined the main service ushering team.. the neo brothers..

left at around 12.30pm and met up with wynne her clique at around 2pm at TM.. oh ya.. thanx wynne for the souvenir from perth.. a few of them couldnt make it and thus it was only me, nic, wynne and pei yi who took 10 to upper east coast.. along the way they were talking about ghost stories again!!! lol.. and at that point in time it was raining cats and dogs.. yea.. talk abt atmosphere..

dorcia's dad picked us up at the bus-stop cos of the rain..

played snooker for the 1st time in my life.. watched how the game is played but nv really got the chance to play it myself.. so.. yea.. happy that my chance finally arrived.. played with some of the ppl who were dere earlier and i ended up playing with dorcia's brother.. well.. apparently i kinda got thrashed.. lol.. but its ok... an experience indeed.. :)

after that we went to start bbq-ing.. the fire was especially strong.. so the food cooked fast.. and the earlier batch of ppl started attempting burps by drinking lotsa fizzy drink.. lol.. haha.. cool.. bbq-ed and ate till 8,9 sth and we watched kill bill 2.. supposed to some gory show but the only gory part was the squishing of the eyeball.. lol..

we left shortly after that.. thank God i was able to catch the last 81 bus at TM..

2006-12-21T18:36:00.000+08:00

well.. juz returned from the 2nd day of ogl course.. after having a nice warm bath from the disgusting cold and moist state i was in.. anw.. today's highlight would be the wet and extremely dirty games.. nevertheless.. it was all in the name of fun.. well.. certainly had a great time completing all the disgusting stations.. from using ur mouth to pick up stuffs that were covered with slimy food stuff to having to roll on a layer of crap resulting in us stinking the whole place up.. yea.. it was fun.. oh.. not forgetting the water bomb segment.. lol..

now my og's more united and everything.. yep.. which is good..

going to meet up with some of the guys later at the airport to meet Aaron.. hmm.. it's been a long while since i met him.. yea.. looking forward to a time of catching up..

ytd was the 1st day of the ogl course.. and as usual.. we had to break the "ice" among ourselves.. esp our own ogs.. yup.. we had dry games instead of wet games..

went to sophia's bday chalet at downtown east later that nite.. tot i wouldnt be able to make it cos of the ogl thingy but since its a course and not a camp now.. i was able to make myself present at e chalet.. yup..

2006-12-19T19:44:00.000+08:00

Today

went to skool at 9am this morning for table tennis trng.. my 2nd trng.. haha.. today wasnt exactly a trng la.. more of a warm-up for us cos its been awhile since the t.t. ppl trained.. yep.. there's sth i muz master and thats topspin.. yea.. played with some of the t.t. members dere for the first time.. made new friends along the way.. yup.. then there was 2 appeal cases who came today for trials or sth.. and apparently one of the candidates was the captain of chung cheng table tennis.. lol.. appeal to tpjc? hmm... anw.. i guess im probably the only one who cant topspin yet.. dun worry.. i'll work on that.. :) we called it a day at ard 11am.. and after which we made our way to T mart for lunch..

went to hui qi's hse after trng to pick up the death note anime from episodes 1-8.. yep.. yay!! wonder if the movie's the same as the anime not.. hmm...

Monday

oh my goodness!! it'll be quite a while b4 i touch sushi again.. yea.. u heard me right.. sushi.. but then again.. its the rice that made us so bloated la.. wah lao.. stupid rice.. here's wad happened...

hung out at vivo with PIG Inc. that day..

ate freaking lotsa sushi at sakae.. and i tink the staff there were keeping a close eye on our table.. making sure that we could finish wad we ordered.. which was all thanx to me.. haha!! lol.. once we settled in.. and they told us we could start our eating.. the first thing that my hand went for wasnt the sushi.. but the mouse!! lol... haha.. i guess i overestimated my stomach.. lol.. tho i was extremely famished.. started clicking and ordering like nobody's business.. lol.. while mk and nic were busy eating sushi.. i was there clicking away.. haha!! and in the end.. we literally gorged ourselves to the brink of death.. lol.. it was really one of those few moments that i was really bloated.. BURP!! everytime the waiters came near tables, our hearts would skip a beat.. fearing that more food was going to be placed on the already cramped up table - cramped with numerous sushi... lol.. we tried our very best to finish as much as we could.. and eventually we had to pay surcharge for 3 temakis.. and its the 1st time i was paying for surcharge at a buffet.. lol... ok... my bad.. :(

after stuffing ourselves silly with sushi.. PIG Inc. went for a walk to hasten the digestion that seemed to take forever.. lol.. initially the 3 of us couldnt walk properly.. we looked like some pregnant ladies walking ard.. only this time we're were guys.. lol..

headed to ben and jerry's for ice cream and it was quite nice.. wouldnt mind going to ben and jerry's again.. yup.. had a scoop of cookies and cream..

after that.. we continued walking a while more b4 we left for home.. thats it..

looking forward to more PIG outings in the future!! *grins*

2006-12-13T14:18:00.000+08:00

had a game of tennis with nic today.. george was bz workin while mk was on duty.. lol.. SUPER NANNY!! haha.. alrite.. anw.. tennis can be quite fun.. but u really need those shoulder muscles im telling ya.. lol.. and height really plays a major role too.. lol.. yep.. overall.. quite fun la.. hmm.. juz wondering.. where in s'pore are there free table tennis tables for the public to utilise.. well..

going on a cruise trip later.. 2D2N.. wonder wad's there to be done on board.. erm.. besides eating and sleeping?? well.. probably gonna bring some hwk dere to kill time.. lol.. it's been a while since i went for cruise.. probably on the star virgo.. yea.. anw.. we'll c how things turn out den..

for now.. tink im gonna catch some sleep b4 i get packin' for the cruise.. lol.. darn.. 24 reading logs..!!

2006-12-12T20:14:00.000+08:00

Time

as i watched the seconds go by, it hit me that something so small, sth so insignificant.. actually brings about something so great and significant..

sigh..

2006-12-12T14:15:00.000+08:00

couldnt really sleep last nite.. dunno y.. keep tossing and turning about in bed.. constantly trying to clear my mind of tots that were such a waste of time.. of all time these stupid questions had to pop into my mind at the very hour that i wanted to sleep.. infuriating.. but eventually managed to catch a wink of two.. and i had an extremely weird dream last nite.. the dream appeared vague tho.. so cant really recall vividly wad happened in the dream.. yea.. but the dream was roughly abt me being humiliated very badly.. lol.. wonder y such a dream..

woke up to a bowl of fish porridge.. caught the beach volleyball game where it was japan up against china.. yep... them again.. wish there were more singapore matches so at least it gives me the incentive to stay up late and watch the whole match.. lol.. juz wondering how come beach volleyball only got 2 players on each side.. tot usually is ard 3 or more de.. lol..

haha.. today played online msn billard with sean for a while.. and we were playing the 9-ball game.. there was once i break and the 9-ball got pocketed.. lol.. its like in golf u get a hole-in-one that sort.. yea.. lol.. u only get this in computer games la.. lol..

had a hearty lunch today.. i mean.. spent $5 on lunch today.. no.. not a macs meal nor KFC meal.. but 2 bowls of lor mee that's apparently suppose to be very nice.. and $1 worth of soya bean drink.. yup.. really bloated now.. but that's when im contented.. haha.. :D

well.. going bowling with some of my church ppl later.. but not my peers.. cos most of them r going thru the exam period in their poly life.. yep.. all the best to them!

guess it's really time to move on.. wad was lost wasnt meant to be lost in the first place.. holidays r over man.. face it and wake up...

2006-12-11T15:47:00.000+08:00

hmm.. tink im falling ill alr.. been sneezing so much lately.. anw.. just had a game of badminton with sheena, jon soh, ken soh, sarsi (how do u spell his name??), and ben thia.. played from 12-2pm and it happened to rain at like around 1pm.. i tink.. yea..

after much pondering.. i've finally realised that the wasting of my 1.5 years is all my fault.. i could blame no one.. the only one i could blame for committing such a foolish mistake is me.. and the problem lies in my stubborn procrastination.. darn.. im really so regretting it now.. sigh..

2006-12-10T18:49:00.000+08:00

was juz reading thru the Purpose-Driven Life book.. its really sth u guys out there shouldnt miss out.. anw.. im so inspired by it.. after an excruciatingly long period of time spent on searching on the purpose of life.. i've finally found the stuff that im looking for.. no more self-help books that never seem to satisfy what im really looking for.. i really wanna turn time back to relive the past year that i've missed out.. so much things have happened.. tho they appeared right in front of me.. i nv seemed to be able to touch or feel them.. and did it really have to take 1.5 years?

anw.. look on the bright side.. at least im not saying this at the end of yr 2007.. im not saying wad im saying now at the end of my 18 years of age.. but i really missed out on alot of fun.. sigh.. that's sth i'll regret a lifetime.. learn from my mistakes and dun repeat it..

so now u can basically summarise my life into 3 segments :

1. the 1st 15.5 years of my life was spent living my life in a way that was self-centred.. meaning God didnt have a place in my life.. all i cared abt was my studies.. and everything that had got to do with me..

2. the transition period. from the mid of sec 4 to the current.. which is approximately 1.5 years.. the only thing i wish is that this transition period never started in the 1st place.. y did it have to even start?? it might be as simple as me being so foolish and going straight into wad i tot was true and nv considered analysing it.. darn.. how could i be so foolish?? well.. guess my punishment was wasting 1.5 years of my life.. something that a sentimental person who definitely cherish..

3. my life from now onwards.. its gonna be God-centred from now on.. no more me, myself and I.. how i wished this happened when i was in mid sec 4.. sigh.. well..

anw.. juz wanna quote a few sentences from the book itself.. think it might really come in handy and useful.. especially when life doesnt seem to matter anymore..

"One day, you will stand before God and He will do an audit of your life, a final exam, before you enter eternity. ...we will stand personally before the judgement seat of God and each of us will have to give a personal account to God."

"You do the eternal and timeless in a contemporary and timely way. That is what purpose-driven life is all about."

"Neither past nor future generations can serve God's purpose in this generation. Only we can."

"God is still looking for people to use. Will you be a person God can use for His purposes? Will you serve God's purpose in your generation?"

"You weren't put on Earth to be remembered. You were put here to prepare for eternity."

Life is all about Him, nothing else.

2006-12-10T16:46:00.000+08:00

juz caught superman returns on dvd.. well.. ok.. lol.. thats almost my comment for every show i watch..

watched mission impossible 3 on dvd too.. the other day.. tink was on friday b4 cell.. yea.. one thing i like about that show is that everything flows SO smoothly.. lol.. like perfectly flawless.. but at the same time its risky.. if sth crops up den everything after that will screw up equally.. lol.. but i juz like the tactical, strategic aspect of it all.. cool!! oh and did i mention the gadgets they use during their missions? lol.. if only i could get my hands on those.. lol.. haha..

alrite.. not going por por hse today cos parents going for some wedding dinner.. and as usual they inform me at the eleventh hour.. spoil my plans la.. well.. wad to do on a sunday nite? i dunno.. better not waste it.. lol..

ok.. gotta go get busy.. it's been a while since the word busy came to mind.. lol..

2006-12-09T23:04:00.000+08:00

went to church to play table tennis with jon soh today.. kinda a last minute thing.. lol.. yea.. and i really got to polish up on those skills.. darn.. so rusty.. probably its becos i havent been playing for a very long time.. so long till my bats collected dust.. yea.. i cant feel the same "feeling" when playing as compared to last time.. sigh.. bad sign..

after table tennis went for carolling practice at the chapel.. going carolling on the 16 and 22 dec with my YA cell.. yep.. first time doing this.. tink not many from my cell were informed abt this pract as only me and neo from our cell turned up.. yea.. din noe christmas carols oso had chinese version.. lol.. haha..

today Youth Ablaze was different.. had praise and worship the whole 2 hours.. no cell discussions today.. yup..

played bball after service.. den went to compass point for dinner at BK.. cos got voucher.. lol.. ate quite a bit cos had a brunch.. and being the glutton i m.. wad do u expect?? lol..

play more bball at sengkang cc.. the court was nice.. with half of it sheltered and e other half not.. heard that on fridays all the pros go there and pit their skills against other competent and worthy opponents.. hmm.. alrite..

after which.. went back to the BK and left ken soh dere to get one of the gal's number.. apparently the gal was working at BK.. lol.. but sean, neo and i left earlier..

and well.. thats all for today.. quite boring tho.. lol..

2006-12-09T12:09:00.000+08:00

when the question popped into my head, i took the core "Education" outta me and now the core me was empty.. i knew i had to put the core "God" into me.. but somehow or rather.. i didnt.. and i dragged this for 1.5 years.. 1.5 years worth of memories is alot... now without a core in me.. im practically floating around life.. juz floating.. having no objectives in life.. so that oso explains me being nostalgic for a longer period of time compared to the me last time.. the impact came so strongly that there was not enuff time for me to recover.. not enuff time for me to clear the fog in front of me.. so all these while.. i've been lost in this "fog".. this seemingly endless "fog".. afraid that this fog might nv clear.. or that i might not be able to steer clear of this "fog".. i soon started conjuring my own conclusions and tots along the way.. which only made things worse.. made me go deeper into the "fog"..

another simplier analogy would be im like stuck in a balloon.. but no matter how hard i try to burst the balloon.. no matter how hard i try to puncture the walls of the balloon.. my efforts were futile.. the walls of the balloon was simply too thick for me to puncture.. y puncture the balloon? the real world is outside the balloon im in.. but now.. im stuck in this balloon.. stuck in virtuality.. and its hurting me indirectly.. my real world is constantly being affected the very moment i got myself into this balloon..

but now.. the recent events that occured in the real world gave me the aid i needed.. gave me the extra boost that i really could use of.. to burst the walls of the balloon.. im able to enter the real world once again.. and this time.. i had an objective in mind.. that is to put the core "God" into my core system..

tricky eh?

2006-12-08T23:46:00.000+08:00

first.. it all started in the bio lab.. it took place in june.. or july.. cant rmb.. but during the middle of my sec 4 year.. "perfect timing".. this question, dunno whether can say its dumb or there for a reason.. popped into my head : why in the world m i working so hard when these are all gonna be temporary only?? and following that.. my whole world came crashing down.. i gave up on everything.. studies.. etc.. and it had to happen at that crucial moment.. well.. that kinda explains y im in TPJC and not SAJC.. no offense tho.. lol.. well.. i guess it happened for a reason.. it happened so that my eyes could be opened.. to finally see the truth and to finally be in the light.. that probably oso explains y i was studying so hard while some ppl were alr playing.. lol.. the dose was a strong one.. so that's y the side effects were equally strong.. well.. good medicine usually taste bitter.. guess the extra boost has arrived.. and its time for me to leave the unreal.. well.. wad can i say.. an experience not many have encountered..

lets juz say.. the bitterness lingered way too long..

2006-12-08T12:28:00.000+08:00

ok.. juz had a game of bball.. finally got to wear my converse bball jersey!! haha.. darn.. gotta start working on those techniques.. anw.. going to CP later for lunch with nic, mk and his church pals.. gonna have a game of badminton later with dad.. took leave cos of the supposed m'sia trip we were supposed to have but due to unforseen circumstances.. our trip was canceled.. cos no hotels left.. all fully booked.. lol.. not sure if im going for the odac farewell party later.. hmm.. c 1st la..

ok.. finally managed to get one of the table tennis mbr's contact.. and trng's gonna start on the 3rd week of dec.. yay! tho its kinda late.. lol.. havent touched the bat in like ages la.. and now there's like the doha games so its like spurring me on to play more table tennis.. haha.. gotta polish up on those skills.. sigh..

ok.. thats abt it for now.. tata..

2006-12-07T12:42:00.000+08:00

dun question God's timing.. it's beyond perfection.. beyond flawless...

was tinking of using contacts in place of spectacles.. sure u'll look nicer.. but wad about the dangers of using contacts?? wad if the contacts shifted to a different spot of the eye.. wad if u had to undergo operation becos of a contact lens and had to suffer the adverse consequences? these scary thots engulfed my mind as i pondered as to whether i should use contacts.. sigh..

2006-12-06T21:55:00.000+08:00

well.. wad can i say.. SL 2006 for 06S01 has come to an end.. these 3 days have past so quickly that i could hardly catch my breath and feel myself doing wad i've actually been doing for these days.. the many many hours of CT periods used for discussing the idea for SL.. the numerous hours spent on doing and touching up the SL proposal.. the headaches.. the panics.. haha.. but at the end of the day.. you'll sit back and realise that everything's worth it.. not a single bit of regret.. yup.. contented i muz say.. as i walked the usual path i would take to the bus-stop to go home.. i started recollecting the events that occurred for the past 3 days.. the activities.. the many rushes that we went thru.. the ups and downs we experienced thruout the 3 days as a class.. juz in the twinkling of an eye.. SL has alr been accomplished.. from finding ourselves in an alien place to becoming more comfortable in the Home.. yea.. from being afraid of the residents to interacting and socialising with the residents.. the hasty morning briefings.. walking past the security guard.. using the meeting room as our "headquarters".. the friendly staff there.. seeing them for 3 days.. their hospitality.. making sure that every teeny weeny bit of stuff was taken care of.. ensuring that everything went smoothly.. tough but satisfying..

then it hit me that everything's coming to an end.. the year's coming to an end.. the events that were scheduled in my organiser were gradually coming to an end, one by one.. seems so sad that things have to come to an end.. sigh.. first it was the PW OP, then the sec 1 bonding, followed by the OCIP 2006 cambodia.. then it was the LOS camp.. and now.. this.. SL 2006.. wow.. everything's juz coming to an end so fast!! sigh.. but i guess we'll have to look ahead of us.. cos it's the future that we can determine.. the past is not ours to touch..

was very happy that i could have dinner with my friends today.. cos for the past 2 dinners i've been eating at home.. sitting in front of the tv.. that is so lifeless.. so cold.. ok.. crap.. anw.. headed down to hougang mall to have dinner with francis gang.. asked ken y hougang mall.. cos it was a random decision.. haha.. lol.. ok.. took 325 with them and we went to pepper lunch express at B1.. first time eating there.. there were like limited seats and there was a queue waiting to get their seats.. the food was delectable.. ordered the pepper beef rice set.. then there's honey brown sauce and garlic sauce for u to add to ur food.. not forgetting the pepper there thats like so nice la!! lol.. different from those cheapo pepper that we use so often.. lol.. ate to my heart's content.. oh and i realised pepsi is kinda sweeter than coke.. lol.. ok.. random.. haha.. after dinner we went to explore hougang mall.. haha.. KLKK.. haha.. reminds me of mdm cheong.. well.. those were the days.. anw.. after entering a few shops.. we finally landed in the library.. lol.. it's been ages since i stepping into a library.. the atmosphere changed so abruptly.. from noisy to pin-drop silence.. ok mayb im exaggerating.. but its abt the same.. yea.. lol.. having no mood to pick up a book to read.. i went to those coms that were used for some catalog stuff.. went there to "play around" with the com.. then when i switched the language to tamil and i typed using the keyboard.. tamil words started coming out!! LOL!! i was laughing my head off la.. it soon caught the attention of my fellow classmates.. haha.. we had a really hilarious time meddling with the com.. switching from different languages from time to time.. and messing around with the functions.. HAHA!! nv had such a good laugh in eons.. lol.. sometimes simple stuff can oso make u happy.. and the thing is.. we were fooling around in our tpjc outfits.. how smart of us.. but we simply couldnt contain the laughter inside us.. well.. after getting sick of the machine.. we went to search for fran and mich.. they were looking at some dog book.. yea.. feeling bored and having aching legs.. i took an optical illusion book from the shelf and started flipping thru.. intrigued by the illusions.. the same ppl who made fun of the com joined me and we starting workin on some of the illusions.. haha.. quite interesting.. and i tink i've become dumber.. lol.. probably from not doing work for a very long time.. lol.. the library closed soon after we left.. and we went home after that..

this is wad we had fun laughing at:
read the chinese words out loud.. if u can see them.. lol..

the best memories u can give urself is to live every moment of ur life in a 100% way.. forget the photos.. forget the journals and reflections.. wad's impt is that u have made the most out of the experience u received or encountered..

2006-12-05T19:43:00.000+08:00

almost forgot to take my malaria pills today! lucky a few ppl reminded me.. thanx to those who reminded me bout the pills.. lol.. ok.. today sl was kinda screwed up.. and its cos of a couple of reasons.. yea.. but its ok.. ppl make mistakes and we learn from them.. at the end of the day.. i juz want my classmates to be happy as well as for the residents there.. started on the painting today.. played team-building games.. had telematch.. yup.. thats abt it for the day.. at least i got to have breakfast today.. yay! haha.. gave the residents a sachet of kopi each.. as the gift of the day.. yep..

i hope my life has finally been ironed out..

2006-12-04T18:58:00.000+08:00

first of sl today.. had the final briefing at macs in the morning.. arrived at the macs at hougang green mall at around the same time as the rest.. tot i was gonna be super late la.. haha.. ok.. anw.. was kinda rush for the morning both at the final briefing and at the home itself.. introed the groups and assigned ppl for station masters, etc.. gettin the clues for the amazing race.. getting stuff ready la.. in a nutshell.. but later that day.. things were more smooth-flowing.. yea.. but its understandable la.. first time in a stranger place.. well.. ok.. contented.. hope tml's wont go haywire..

ok.. i made a pact with myself today.. that within 10 days i muz get down-to-earth and within the next 10 days.. i have to have made reading the Bible a habit..

2006-12-03T02:10:00.000+08:00

some things in life only occur once... and if u dun cherish every moment of ur life... well... you'll live to regret it..

going to cambodia for ocip '06 was simply too precious an experience for it to be used as a lesson learnt...

my bad..

Time is free but expensive when lost.

And i should get myself a round-the-clock journal for overseas experiences.

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went for the standard chartered marathon today!! had only 3hr 40 mins of sleep.. cos i came home from the LOS at ard 1am.. lol.. anw.. woke up at 5.40am to freshen myself up.. wore the addidas marathon singlet.. i rarely wear singlets out.. yea.. really appreciate mk's mom giving me and nic a ride to somewhere near the esplanade at such early hours.. without her help.. i guess we'd be super late la.. yea.. headed down to mac to grab a sausage macmuffin.. really enjoyed the tranquil of the morning.. when the streets r juz so dead-quiet.. and u can count the ppl on the streets using ur 10 fingers.. lol.. haha.. the morning breeze was simply refreshing.. love the wind.. arrived at the place, deposited our bags and headed to the starting line.. thing is.. we got to the starting line like 15 mins later after the starting horn had been sounded.. lol.. haha.. wad a way to start a 10km marathon.. so my timing by right should be 52 mins.. haha.. if mk was right about the 4 of us being 15 mins late la.. talking about timing.. i dun tink my timing was recorded since i attached the championchip to my wrist instead of the shoelace.. darn!.. wad a pity.. haiz.. the run was sheer torture.. lol.. y did i even subject myself to such excruciation.. haha.. lol.. finishing the race gave me a small sense of accomplishment.. got a finisher's medal and free 100plus.. haha.. should've taken the free banana.. lol.. free mah! haha.. finished earliest among the 4 of us.. but the differences wasnt too far apart either.. so congratz to the 4 of us.. u noe wad the motivation for making me run consistently? guess.. haha.. no offense but my motivation to run throughout the marathon were the plump or old runners in front of me.. LOL! the last marker i saw was the 6km mark.. din see the 7,8,9,10km mark.. yea.. the area around the drinks station along the course of the marathon were littered with paper cups.. its like ppl juz throw as though there was no penalty or sth.. so i threw mine on the floor oso.. quite shiok to litter.. haha! aiya.. should've littered more.. wasted.. lol.. sustained a right knee injury after the race.. but its quite minor.. yea.. prayed for healing alr.. so i muz have faith! yup yup..

headed to cafe cartel for breakfast.. woa.. felt like some rich kid or sth.. sometimes its good to indulge in the finer side.. haha.. feels darn good to be rich.. tho im not.. lol.. but being not rich isnt bad anyway.. yep.. learnt from ocip.. life can be simple yet happy.. took the complimentary newspaper.. and our breakfast too such a long time to arrive.. the diners next to us were oso equally angry.. lol.. the food was good.. maybe cos i was famished.. dunno.. after breakfast we headed home alr..

went home and left the hse again to meet up with the loggers for the sl which commences tml.. had to discuss the logistics stuff with them and oso to purchase the stuff.. went to TM to meet them.. after which i went home.. yup..

2006-11-30T10:54:00.000+08:00

well... i realised that if i didnt blog bout the trip, my mind wouldnt be at rest... so here goes... i'll try my best to recall every detail as far as possible...

on the day before the trip.. juz hours before the next day... i had trouble getting myself to sleep... to catch a few winks... could it be the sheer excitement? or juz that im still troubled over some trivial stuff? i dunno... anw.. it took my quite a while before i could persude myself to sleep.. i din have much of a time to sleep anw... woke up the next day, which is apparently a few hours' of sleep away, and i did last minute preparations.. double-checking to make sure i had everything i needed... then i went on the give morning sms-es to my logistics ppl.. lol.. haha.. some were actually at the airport alr... lol... i rmb messaging my puppet ppl early that morning to ensure everything was taken care of... yea... side track.. really glad to have known new ppl in the puppet team... of which i wouldnt have had got the chance to noe wad hui qi's hse would look like... ok.. back to wad i was saying... i went to freshen myself up only to realise that my toothbrush and toothpaste were in the suitcase.. after which.. i left the hse with my parents for changi airport... somehow or rather... i seem to like the tranquil of the wee hours of the day... when everyone's deep in dreamland... the peace... haha.. loaded the suitcase into the boot of the car and off we went... i juz love to go to changi airport esp. in the wee hours of the day... i juz feel that all my heavy burdens have been lifted the moment i step into the airport... yea... anw... travelling to changi airport in the wee hours of the morning kinda reminds me of the thailand trip i went last yr with my NPCC ppl.. it was really very fun too.. very "memorable" too... lol.. anw.. during the journey to changi airport.. i wasnt sure if i was happy or sad... lol.. mixed feelings i guess... upon arrival at the airport... i told my dad to stop for me to take a pic of the control tower.. when it had a nite time background... yea.. however.. we had trouble trying to get a good spot cos apparently of the incoming vehicles on the road... yea.. den we continued to the airport's carpark where the no. of cars were scarce... tink i came across dorcia's mom's car in the carpark... yea.. the white bmw... anw.. i then had a clear view of the control tower at the carpark but this time.. i had trouble getting a clear shot cos i couldnt use flash and thus it was slightly more difficult to get a clear shot.. anw.. after several attempts.. i juz made do with the best shot i took and went to join my parents who were waiting at the car for me to enter changi airport.. i rmb stepping into changi airport with cheers on my left and further down on my right was the board displaying the status of flights in changi airport (CA)... i oso rmb seeing C.J. and her parents but i din go up to say hi tho.. lol.. anw.. they were in front of my parents and i... took the travellator up to the next level which was the arrival hall.. somehow that's the level i nv want to be in... i hate coming back from overseas holidays... anw.. cos i was carrying my shoe bag, my dad suggested i stuffed it in the suitcase so that i had lesser stuff to carry.. so we stopped by the chairs and did likewise... by that time... C.J. and her parents were way ahead alr.. we ascended to the next level which was the level for departures... i was amazed at the huge and massive crowd at the meeting point... most of the ocip participants were alr present including the teachers... friends came to say their good-byes and all.. yea.. i stood around with my parents for awhile whilst the airport formalities were carried out... met up with MK, nic and george, who came to see us off too.. my parents took a few shots of me and my gang whilst waiting... stood around somemore and juz observed wad was going on... wanted to take a pic of the huge display board in CA but somehow i wasnt so enthu yet.. lol... mrs ting handed me the cassette player for me to look after.. thats part of logistics so i have no reason to complain... anw.. mrs ting is really a very nice lady... she never raised her volume before.. except for the time she had to make announcements... it has really been a privilege to work with her prior to the trip... if only she could be my econs teacher... den maybe my econs grades wouldnt be that bad... lol... my gang and i proceeded with the airport formalities and not that im biased to say this but Singapore's airport staff is much more efficient compared to Cambodia's... ok.. by that time my parents had alr left the scene as they had work a few hours later... we then headed to the place only people with the boarding pass were allowed in... wad separates us and the rest is a glass wall... we went thru the next round of formalities and we were free to roam around for some time... its really cool cos there were not many ppl around... yea.. i hung out with my class ppl and we were to 7-11 to grab some mineral water... and i had to carry the 1.5L bottles thanks to my bag having side pockets.. lol.. anw.. gd trng... lol.. we met some of the ocip ppl at delifrance having their breakfast... but we din join them tho... we carried on to the gate assigned to us.. C19... apparently thats the furthest gate which was to the far end of the airport.. taking the travellators helped abit... tho there was quite a no. of travellators to hop on... lol.. we finally reached gate C19 and i din noe that CA actually provided osim big foot for passengers to use.. lol.. wanted to try but somehow the machine was screwed up.. so.. yea.. sat around.. and i tink i zee, shaun and a few others were oso with us... not long after... we entered the waiting room but before that we had to have our stuff scanned.. yea.. all went well.. no one got held up.. so we waited for quite some time at the waiting hall before we could board the plane... the plane was in full view of those sitted in the waiting hall.. anw.. after much waiting..we finally boarded the plane.. but in groups... according to the range of seat rows... i rmb being the last few to board cos of my seat no... yea... took the complimentary newspaper... i was fortunate enuff to be given the window seat.. haha.. to my right were MK and jazreel.. nic was sitting in the same row as us but on the right side of the plane.. so he was accompanied by two senior citizens who seemed to have a good time chatting with nic.. haha.. it was still dark outside... after everyone had boarded the plane.. it took off soon after... the rapid pace at which the plane was travelling was simply so thrilling.. haha.. and as usual u have to pop ur ears cos of the change in pressure... during the flight.. MK shared with me his mp3 player.. and i took some nice shots of the scenary outside.. which is the sky... the sky soon turned bright and i was unfortunate enuff not to be able to see the sunrise.. wad a pity.. nevertheless i juz made the most outta wad i had.. cambodia was 1 hr behind S'pore's time.. so we technically gained 1 hr of our life.. lol.. ok lame.. anw.. the sky would turn bright earlier and turn dark earlier too... took some pics of the scenary below when we were approaching siem reap int'l airport.. total difference from Singapore... the attap houses.. the vast green pastures.. everything... we soon landed and we had to walk down this staircase which was unlike Singapore's.. was really cool cos u get to see the plane so close to u.. haha.. JetStarAsia.. lol.. we then proceeded with cambodia's airport formalities and we went to collect our luggages.. we waited for everybody to collect their stuff before we proceeded out of the airport.. there waiting for us was a bus that seemed too small to fit us all and our stuff.. we had difficulty trying to pack everything into one bus... after much contemplation.. we finally got on the bus and some of our stuff were loaded into the bus as well.. the rest would be transported by another bus.. we left for cozyna hotel in siem reap for our breakfast... it was a short ride... breakfast was served buffet style.. ya.. so after breakfast we continued on our journey to battambang... this time it was a 5 hrs ride... along the way.. there happened to be a jam which held many ppl up.. apparently the sole bridge had been damaged and "engineers" were working on it.. took a long while b4 it was finally fixed.. i got off the bus to get a breather... tgt with some of them... the air outside was so much cooler and i could stretch finally.. some ppl went to search for conducive places to relief themselves.. haha.. amongst the dense forestation that is.. the scenary was nice... but the heavy jam wasnt... after the bridge had been fixed.. we carried on to victoria hotel battambang(LOL).. the roads never fail to make the rides bumpy... but it was fun tho... upon arrival at the airport... we were warmly greeted and welcomed by the people.. we were handed each a scented flower and the teachers were given a garland around their neck.. we sorted out the room numbers and brought our lugguages up to our rooms.. my room was 308 and my roommate was sadiq.. that was the hotel we were going to stay in for a long period of time.. after lunch, we then had to attend an opening ceremony by the AS ppl at some place which had a swimming pool, gym, playground and a huge arc-shaped structure.. lol.. then dinner was provided.. at first we werent used to the many flies that seemed to bug us.. but we got used to it soon after.. steamboat is an always at all meals except breakfast... after dinner we took photos of the place and after which we headed back to the hotel.. we had two buses as our transportation... these buses were the ones bringing us to everywhere we went.. then there was a meeting at the foyer and preparation for those groups that had teaching the next day... as my group, group C, didnt have teaching the next day.. we didnt have to meet to discuss anything.. MK and nic were bunking tgt and they were my neighbours.. 307 in battambong and 407 in siem reap.. btw.. my room no. was 408 in siem reap cozyna hotel.. cool rite.. 308 and 408.. it was then off to bed and the next day awaited us...

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finally finished the post-trip reflection.. word count : 3000.. lol! took me a few days to do the reflection.. haha.. wanted to do a good reflection.. really miss the trip so much.. sigh.. shant go into the emo part.. since my previous entries were all bout the emo aspect bout the trip.. lol..

went for advance party at nite.. prepared the logistics and got our final briefing from joe.. tink he's really good when it comes to planning for games and stuff.. the team names were the names of the different fast food outlets.. and drinks.. sec 3s were oso ard cos dey were the leaders for the camp.. we were juz helpers.. after the advance party.. went home to continue the reflections.. slept quite "early"..

2006-11-29T18:46:00.000+08:00

life is like a museum...

the events that have occurred in ur life are like showcases in the museum and it is framed up or boxed up in a glass box... like how a museum would usually display its monuments... and all that is within ur power is juz to look at it... to look back at ur past... somehow or rather... these "monuments" cannot be taken away or touched... u cant do anything to change ur past.. nor turn time back to relive those days... all u can do is juz to peer over to have a glimpse of ur past...

thats life...

i only have myself to blame... how could i have been so foolish... darn...

100% + photos + sustaining mechanism = 100%

its the fun and friends...

2006-11-27T10:11:00.000+08:00

back from cambodia... these 13 days have really flew past and before i knew it... i was alr boarding the plane back to singapore... days passed like the falling of leaves... well... they say everything that has a beginning has an end... wel.. i hate endings!! i miss every single bit of the trip... though very taxing but the joy of service really overwhelms every tinge of fatigue... i juz cant bring myself to letting go of the trip and moving on with life... time is ticking the very moment im recollecting the fond memories of the trip... indeed a race against time... well... i told myself: tinking bout the past wont retrieve the past, wont rewind time back to the day we were boarding the plane for siem reap... as long as i have given my 100% that'll be the most i could've done to redeem the fact that time is always ticking... there is no way we can escape from the fact that time is always running... time waits for no man... well... borrowing from my previous entry... u cant do anything bout the past except to learn from it and to appreciate it... Lord... is there any other way to convince me to let go of this trip... it's really taking a toil on me... yes... i have no doubts that this trip was a meaningful/fruitful/fulfilling one... and i noe life has gotta move on... but i dunno wad's holding me back... i guess wad's holding me back is the fact that this whole trip... the whole arrangement... every single moment... every single bit of it... wont ever happen the exact same way again as it did for the past 13 days... i juz thank God for giving me this once-in-a-lifetime opportunity... an opportunity so special that it really melts the heart of one... anw.. the cuts i have sustained during the trip would be little reminders of me being in cambodia... for once.. im happy to be injured... lol... ok... lemme go mull bout the past a lil while more b4 i enter reality... bye...

this is juz the beginning, there's more to be done...

went to catch Step Up with iven peh.. cos the rest of our gang were unavailable.. either hols or watched alr.. lol.. heard it was a very good show.. bout dancing and stuff.. sad thing is.. half my mind was on cambodia.. the other half on the show.. sigh.. tot movie therapy could help ease the heart break.. din work for me tho.. needed a stronger dose.. caught up with iven.. seems like he's really busy with council stuff.. yea.. well.. guess being a councilor isnt a walk in the park after all..

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went to collect the race stuff for the Standard Chartered Marathon 2006 on sunday.. the day i arrived in singapore from cambodia.. seems like this SCM is kinda a huge event.. need to go suntec expo hall to collect the race pack.. lol.. 1st time taking part in this marathon.. haha.. actually the reason for taking part is to enjoy the 20% discount for addidas merchandises.. and the free singlet.. and bag.. haha! ok.. cheapskate.. wadeva.. lol.. paid $35 ok! woa.. hmm.. maybe participate next yr as volunteer.. haha.. would the incentives be more enticing? haha..

2006-11-13T23:50:00.000+08:00

juz came back from my mom's bday dinner... had it at Holiday Inn Atrium at concorde... tink its somewhere at outram road... i tink.. ate buffet.. and the theme for the nite was BBQ... so basically there were bbq seafood and all those bbq meaty stuff... yea... had a sumptuous meal... but there were 3 main highlights of the meal...

one. i added some english mustard onto my beef and cos i din noe wad english mustard was... tot its some sweet sauce... so i poured it all over my beef... and when i took the first bite... my mouth stinged with spiciness... its the wasabi spiciness... or worst actually... wah... kena jagged big time la... dratz... den had to drink the whole glass of ice water...

two. the bbq prawn dere is beyond godlike la... fresh, chewy, juicy, succulent, delectable... u name it... yea... ate to my heart's content....

three. i learnt that im really not a coffee person... i cant stand the slightest taste of bitterness... even after i've like added two packets of sugar... lol... the moment the coffee touched my tongue... the moment my eyes widened... in the end i drank a cup of tea...

well... im like leaving for cambodia in like 3 hrs time... having mixed feelings now... both happy and sad... happy cos the long-awaited day has finally arrived... sad cos its oso coming to an end... im sure of that... in the twinkling of an eye... i'd be back in S'pore on the 26 of nov... haiz... well... wad has the greatest stamina amongst all? time... lol...

finally packed all my stuff... exploding suitcase i have... lol... will get souvenirs back for u guys out dere... :)

ok... gonna catch a few winks b4 i depart for the airport... this time im going dere for a purpose...

CAMBODIA HERE I COME!!!

2006-11-13T13:42:00.000+08:00

can u believe it??? im leaving for cambodia in 10+ hours' time!!! lol... haha... excited yet afriad... but i shouldnt be afriad... cos i noe God will keep me safe in his arms... i noe that He will protect me 24/7... haha... yea... so my job is juz to have fun and keep a vigil of my surroundings...

guess THE day has finally arrived... can still rmb the day i took the application form for the ocip... cant rmb when was that... time really flew... the interview... the ocip mtgs... the preparations... the headaches... the adrenaline rush as we awaited our turn to taste the skin-piercing metal penetrate our tender skin.. and having to pop malaria pills every Tues.. haha... the pre-trip reflection form.. from being total strangers initially to being good friends eventually... but its all worth it... but going for this trip had an opporutunity cost... i couldnt make it for the odac overseas trip... GRRR!!! so wasted la... if only the trip was one day later... could've made it alr.. haiz...

wel... gotta start packing!!! still have 4.5 hrs left to pack... later still going to celebrate my mom's bday... buffet dinner i guess... haha... yay!

i love going overseas... :D

2006-11-12T21:44:00.000+08:00

ok... im heading to cambodia in like 2 days' time!!! lol... really hope it'll be a very fun and safe trip... yea... bringing mua cam along to take many many pics... well... i believe in photos... haha.. still have yet to pack... not cos im bz... but cos im lazy... lol...

gonna celebrate my mom's bday tml... prob a dinner i guess...

the sec 1 bonding ended today... tho it was a short one... it was really meaningful and successful... we went to pasir ris park... played dog-and-bone to start off as ice breaker... followed by the sponge-and-apple game... den it was the parachute game.. and lastly captain's ball... after which... lunch came... played bball with the guys at the unofficial bball court in PRP... initially it was only a handful of guys but soon enuff... the whole court was flooded with the other sec 1s... lol... we had the whole court to ourselves... and every time i shot the ball... sand would somehow find it way into my mouth... grr... cos the floor was blanketed with sand.. lol... no friction... fortunately no one was injured... we got on the coach b4 it started to pour... divine timing by God... and well... my prayer was answered cos i prayed for the rain not to get in our way... yea.. while the rest were having dinner... i went home to change my mem. card cos it was alr full! lol. half a day and its alr full... grabbed a pile of newspaper and headed back to church... reached church and started cooking using the mess tin and solid fuel... reminds me of the days... had a filling dinner cos i had one whole mess tin to myself.. lol... and i felt so humiliated when i remembered helping one of the boys to transfer the food from the mess tin to the strofoam bowl... i spilled a whole lot of soup on the table cloth... so clumsy of me.. and the sec 1s happened to see it... dratz... lol... dinner ended earlier than expected and so it was to area cleaning... we delegated the washing and cleaning up to the sec 1s... kinda reminds me of my earlier days... after dinner we played nite games... had only 2 stations... one was to find small objects carefully placed in the level 2 guys washroom... in total darkness... surprisingly they managed to get most of the stuff... the other was some egg game played in dining hall... den it was to the Finale!! HAHA... the best and last part of nite games... it was really hilarious... the person who forfeited was given the "powder" treatment... haha... played 2 games... the zhong ji mi mah and taboo game.. lol... both were equally exciting... after which we had supper and the guys went to play soccer... as usual... yea... had hokkien mee for supper... heard it was compliments from one of the sec1 parents... i kinda reserved one packet for myself even tho i alr had one packet cos the leftovers would eventually end up in the dustbin... after ensuring the whole church was locked up... we went to lvl 3... while i was walking to the pantry some sec 1 alerted me that the guys wanted the hokkien mee... since there was only one packet left... i had to give it to them... the funny thing was... when i opened the door to room 303 where the boys bunked... i was like talking to no one but darkness la... it was so dark.. lol... most of the boys chionged outta the room and i told them to eat in the pantry... so commical la... haha... went to toilet and when i came out of the toilet... i was both amazed and happy simultaneously... i saw both the boys and girls cramped in the room... with one packet in the centre of the table... this showed that dey were so so bonded la... was really pleased with that... din expect to have seen that... wasted should've taken a photo... argh... so to top it off... i opened the pantry door and i told the whole lot of them that everyone had to eat at least one strand of noodle... lol... the pantry was filled with laughter as i left for my bunk room... that was e end of the day...

woke up at 9am the next day... and the 1st thing that came to mind was... time really flies... it's like the sec 1 bonding has almost come to an end and it seemed like juz ytd i was discussing with andy the logistics stuff.. haiz... everything has to come to an end... good or bad... i hate endings... had a lil' debrief with the kids and that marked the end of the camp-bonding... well.. one word to describe the camp.. fun...

the camp objectives were met and everyone was happy... yep... really thank God for the success of the bonding-camp... cos little did we expect the boys and girls to mingle with each other... was a really really really fun camp... from the registration to the end of the camp... though extremely exhausted but still... it was all worth it... yea.. took several pics... somehow or rather... i felt that this camp was rather different from the many other camps i have attended... but in a positive way... maybe cos the leaders were the ones leading the whole camp themselves... or maybe the attachment to the kids? so the feeling of success was much stronger.. yea... all in all... credit still goes to Him who made everything successful... :D

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this is the blog for 10 nov..

woke up kinda early to meet up with hui qi, mk, iris and nic.. the puppet show cast.. haha.. but actually we were doing a skit la.. lol.. we met at hui qi's hse.. and if i had not known hui qi.. i wouldnt have known that a shopping mall called Hougang Green shopping mall actually existed.. lol.. went to her place to collect the props for the skit that we had to perform for the ocip meeting which was a few hours away..

had ocip meeting at the dance studio.. wouldnt have had the chance to step into the room had it not been for ocip.. lol.. we did our final preparations and handbooks were distributed tgt with the ocip t-shirt.. final briefing was given b4 we called our meeting a day.. could feel the excitement alr.. the skit wasnt too good as we din have some of the props and so it din really work out well.. but rest assured it would be on the actual day when everything's in place.. yup..

headed to mk's hse to deposit the props.. after which i went home and got ready for the sec 1 camp..

went for dinner with sean and then headed to church to get the logistics for the sec 1 camp prepared.. stayed up till like 3am+ to settle everything.. and fancy going to a 24hr supermarket at 2am in the morning to buy apples..haha! the next morning we panicked only to realise that we left the apples at the supermarket.. thank goodness it's still dere.. tho we were tired but we had a fun time discussing.. lol..

2006-11-09T16:51:00.000+08:00

woke up early to have breakfast with my pw group at T mart mac... ate curry puff b4 i left.. since i couldnt finish the curry puff... i had to eat it in the bus... thank goodness the 53 was kinda empty and the person sitting beside me was sleeping... if not i could've made a fool outta myself... cos for every bite i had to take... i had to bend down lest the bus driver caught me eating.. lol...

breakfast that morning was our final meal tgt... as a group...

well.. i guess e long-awaited day has finally arrived... everyone heaves a sigh of relief... everything concerning pw has finally come to an end... this oso kinda marks the end of the year for us students... hmm... tho im happy pw is finally over... im still sad cos i kinda miss the times when my group got tgt and we would have our own house visitations... lol... yea... laughing and crapping most of the time during our usual pw mtgs... oso got the opportunity to noe the ppl in my group better... yea... kinda bonded tgt... and the times we would rack our brains for the pw... u muz be thinking im nuts but hey... look back and you'll realise it's really been an experience... well... juz tink of it as a once in a lifetime experience... sth that would nv happen again...

this leads me to my next point... how i juz wish that we could juz turn back time and relive the fond memories of our past... i mean... i dunno but i tink im gettin real sentimental here... lol... how i wish everything, both nice and nasty, would not end... to me... endings are always very sad... well.. i guess thats how life works... everything will eventually come to pass one day... nth is permanent in life... dun be sad cos it's over... be happy cos it happened...

im like leaving for cambodia in 4 days' time? wow... things are finally falling into place... hope it'll be a fruitful one... :)

oh and here's the retarded-looking name tag that everyone had to wear for op:

had dinner with sean at hougang plaza... the hokkien mee was nice... lol... after dinner when to play pool with him... it's been a while since i last played pool... yea... fun...

2006-11-08T12:16:00.000+08:00

ok guess wad... im in the mlep room now blogging... anw... juz finished doing the ocip collage thingy... hope it's fine... going to meet ken and hanz to buy some wallets... cos i have the 15% discount voucher and it expires tml... yea... finally a new and better wallet... i hope... lol...

ytd was a rather eventful day...

went to skool early in the morning to work on the collage thing... only to realise that i had to figure a way to use the photoshop... in the end... nth came out of it and so i decided to come back to skool today to use ppt instead... wadeva.. lol... after which.. when to play bball with some of the guys... and den we had to stop cos there was e a levels exam going on... den dere was me, nic, wx and ken left... pondering as to where to head next... after much contemplating... we finally decided to head to vivocity! was my 1st time going dere... yea... place is really huge... went to carl's jr. for lunch... darn... the food is ex la... but its filling and nice tho... :D went to the top floor after lunch and the group of us started playing with the water and stones... lol... and most of us were like wearing tpjc shirt la... lol... was quite fun.. haha... den headed home after that with the rest... and nic said he would change for the better... no more sacarcism anymore... this is interesting... haha...

went for dinner wif andy q cos we had to discuss the logistics for the upcoming sec 1 bonding... haiz... loggers always have headaches trying to get all the stuff... anw... had a proper chat wif him for e 1st time... yea.. quite interesting... man... really have to make the sec 1s ultra passionate for God man... its a challenge... but doable... with prayer... still pondering as to wad can be done to change these kids... and i seriously have to start eating fast... cos i really really eat friggin' slow... lol... after dinner... went to church to check out the stuff we need for the bonding... only manage to find a few stuff... so there's still quite a bit to settle... anw... din expect myself to be playing bball after that... but this time... i was playing with my church bball ppl... yup... like to play fierce match... liddat den fun mah... yea... dey meet every tues and thurs for bball... and the lights would be on at night... yea..

ok... thats all... gtg...

ok.. back from getting myself a wallet.. got a myuk wallet.. ah.. common la.. seems like tats e trend now.. anw.. took me and ken quite a while to find a decent wallet to purchase.. went to marina square to find The Wallet Shop.. to our disappointment.. the wallets dere werent really appealing..

the funny thing is.. whilst we were on our quest in searching for our wallets.. we stopped by several eateries and comtemplated as to whether we should indulge.. the food on the pamphlets beckoned.. well.. wad can i say.. we're talking bout 2 gluttons.. anw.. we finally ate at some really quiet thai eatery.. the food was not bad.. tho slightly ex.. darn.. should've used the anderson's ice-cream voucher that day.. cos i din expect not to use it the next day..

we then proceeded to suntec city and went on to hunt for the wallet shop.. tis time.. the wallets were slightly better-looking and we finally got ourselves a wallet each.. was tinking to myself.. is it really worth gettin contented over an object? even if it's new..? i mean.. its not gonna stick with me forever.. its juz an object.. so in the end i felt neutral bout me having a new wallet.. lol..

went on to meet jon soh and a few of his skool ppl at paradis.. played the photo hunt game.. we owned the machine la.. lol.. played bishi bashi too.. juz love that game.. haha.. stood around while the rest went on to play.. after which they went for dinner at subway while i had to make my way home alr.. since i had dinner waiting for me at home and i had to prepare for PW OP tml..

thats abt it for e day..

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ok.. this is the blog for november 7... went to skool to get the collage thingy started for the ocip trip to cambodia.. woa.. photo shop really requires skill otherwise u get really pissed off and stuff like that.. lol.. practically wasted my morning figuring out how to manipulate the photo shop programme.. darn.. went to the mlep to work on the collage as i had to work with haz... took the malaria pill today since its tues.. lol.. wonder when it'll finish.. got back I n R today.. woa.. red marks all over.. and i tot i had done a rather good job with it.. disappointed.. well.. gotta start working on my I n R now.. deadline is OP day!! lol..

2006-11-06T22:57:00.000+08:00

had SL meeting with the planning committee of the project today.. met at TM at lunch time so we could discuss over lunch and we went yoshi.. planning for camps can really be taxing.. both mentally and physically.. sigh.. anw.. i really hope everything goes out well for the actual thing on the actual day.. please please..

anw.. im workin on the video for 06S01... really tedious work... but it's all worth it... still have to accomplish the following:

- get the remaining photos from jq
- individual shot of t-shirts
- any relevant captions...

wonder when can the video be up man.. waiting...

2006-11-05T10:07:00.000+08:00

alrite... havent been blogging for quite a bit... no inspiration i guess...

anw... the 2 most infuriating thing that happened for the CL exam were that firstly, i kinda screwed up my ending for the compo in an attempt to finish it in time... spent too much time in the first few parts... grr... secondly.. i lost the freakin 1st 12 marks of paper 2... argh!! now im pondering as to whether i should retake anot... tough decision...

wel... went for a haircut ytd... 6 bucks only... rather cheap... and it's not barber anymore! it's at some house where they have their own personal salon... yea... hope the hair works out now... lol.. browsed thru the "pattern" book... lol... (thats wad e auntie calls e book where u scan thru the different styles of cutting ur hair)

wonder when e 4 of us r going to addidas to grab some stuff... 20% discount storewide i tink... gonna grab a pair of shoes for sure...

my schedule's really packed... which is actually good cos it means im kept busy... really hate boredom... after today... everything's gonna come in a blow... one after another... not to mention i still have my PW OP... hafta do a good job... and im going to cambodia in like 9 days time... still havent packed my stuff... really lookin 4ward to it!! :D

in the twinkling of an eye, the year has almost come to the end... and the thing is... it doesnt occur to me that time really flew past me... and i mean flew... 2006 aint gonna return... the times spent in skool with my classmates would nv return... how sad... and i know the darn cause of y this happened to me... did it really have to happen???

2006-10-28T12:24:00.000+08:00

ok... m actually blogging for yesterday's... cos was really tired ytd...

went for badminton early in the morning at tampinese east cc.. following that we headed to TM for lunch at the food court... den... being clueless as to where to head to next... i kinda suggested going to the airport to chill... din expect me to be saying that.. lol... and the next thing i knew... my feet were touching the floor of the airport...

funny thing is... i din noe that a police officer would actually board the bus to check for any suspicious stuff before the bus is allowed to enter deeper into changi airport... lol... ok... first time taking bus to changi airport... (im serious!)... lol... took the skytrain to T2 where we waited for quite some time before we got ourselves a table for 7... little did i know that u'd be chased outta coffee bean for studying there... hmm... y the difference compared to other eateries? anw... bought my very 1st beverage in coffe bean.. sounds dumb.. i noe... sry la! lol...

sat and talked for hours... as tho we were old buds catching up or sth... but actually.. its kinda fun juz sitting around and liaoing tian... yea... u're so not bothered bout the time at all... oh ya... and the manager was like gay lor... according to my friend... he kinda blew softly at another man who apparently appeared to be his friend... anw... could kinda tell that he was kinda gay alr... yea...

btw... changi airport is a place for the higher class of ppl... cos the stuff dere r kinda like so not suited for peasants like me... lol... except for the fast-food outlets that is... yea ok... here comes the juicy part... i really didnt know how we ended up talking bout filthy rich ppl... and how they lead their lives, etc... but i sure did learn a lesson or two bout life... yea... ok.. wadeva.. call me emo for all i care... lol...

never did i realise that the filthy rich (and i really mean filthy rich...) that we see in drama shows actually occur in reality... anw... juz take it that some r simply more fortunate than us... be it having a silver spoon in their mouths or whether they have made several sacrifices and that their efforts have been paid off, tgt with e touch of lady luck, to have came this far... but then again... this isnt the main point im trying to drive across...

call me weird or wad... but after having watched She's The Man... i was kinda inspired to live my life with an underlying principle... that is to turn my dull and mundane life into a colourful one... its a personal choice after all... theres juz so much u can do in life... so much u can get to experience... so much u can get to enjoy... so we shouldnt conform to the monotonous lifestyle tat most Singaporeans are facing, all in the name of the rat race to acheive wads best for them... along the way... we are actually missing out alot on the beauty of life... life isnt juz bout studying and securing a career... sure its impt... but wad abt the other aspects of life... u're juz gonna throw it away and play ignorant? we've all been blessed with the gift of life... and i tink we should make the most outta it... life is bliss... but the perception of life impressed on us by the education system has placed a cloud in between us and life... such that we either never knew wad was more to life or to tie us down from relishing in the blissfulness of life...

in a nutshell... dun keep studying all the time and miss out on the goodness of life...

thats all i gotta say...

2006-10-23T22:40:00.000+08:00

woa.. today watched a video on food nutrition and learnt sth interesting : u dun need to eat meat to get proteins. wel.. basically thats wad keeps vegetarians equally strong and fit... its extremely appalling to watch the horrendous scenes where the throats of animals r slit.. with blood oozing out profusely... theres more but its juz too inhumane to say... worst than a nightmare... guess if animals knew english... slaughterhouse would mean hell for them... it really had an impact on those who watched it with their own eyes.. cos they start eating veggies and all.. lol... haha.. today sj and i ate veggies for recess and oh my... the veggies sux to the core la.. the cai fan store... lol... unexpectedly... new actually came to sit with our class for the 1st time... while eating... talked here and dere... learnt that he actually played bball, badminton and table tennis b4... LOL... had lesson till 5 sth... play ball till ard 6... and again.. i left nic in a lurch again... at the MJC bus stop waiting for his 89 to arrive... again... lol... yea well.. thats bout it... heading to dorcia's place tml for pw... yep... cannot afford to be late again!! lol... haha..

haiz... no mood to blog la... dunno y...

if i said the john they noe in tpjc isnt the real john... who would believe?

has and will thinking so much actually be beneficial to me or juz simply harm me?

2006-10-17T17:34:00.000+08:00

wah... today very shack... the whole day i was so zombish... so dead beat... the worse part came when i started having quite a serious headache at the later part of the day... all because of the wr my group and i had to work on... late into the night... really appreciate them staying up late to accompany me and oso help out with the wr... tink slept at around 1 plus this morning and had to wake up at 6 in the morning for skool... and the worst thing is... i havent been having sufficient sleep for quite some time alr... and its doing me detriment... haiz... juz when can i get enuff sleep??

oh ya... finally managed to play bball today... altho it was like 1 period only... actually it was kinda more than enuff considering the terrible haze that seemed to have caused me to breathe harder... haiz... gotta work on my techniques...

oh ya... i cannot forget this!! haha!! today seng juong and i were like teasing jelvin to the core la... lol... cos we were like imitating the behaviour of I.Ds(ok... we noe this isnt exactly nice...) and we kinda linked it to him cos sj said he had the blurr look... haha... it all started when sj was thinking of coming up with a skit (but eventually we din want the skit) and we were like who should be the I.D in the skit... and e ans kinda came quite naturally... LOL!! hahaha!! and when sj asked mr new regarding the skit... mr new even said it himself that jelvin should act as the I.D... i mean... even a teacher commented on that... haha... now thats humourous... haha... and so sj and i juz kept teasing jel the whole time... lol... anw sj and i juz did it in the name of fun and nth else la... yup...

anw... ok... this is the emo part alr... today i was thinking to myself... all this while.. it was me who had been making life seem so complicated... so sophisticated... and i finally knew why this happened... it's becos i've been trying to make the most outta life thus this mentality kinda screwed up life instead of making it better... most of the time i was concentrating on how to make the best outta life and not live life itself... yea... its kinda like planning so much for sth and not executing it... but was i born like that? or did the world change me? altered my whole self?
instead wad i should have done was juz to simply live life... yup... juz go with life... enjoy life... removing all the rigidity in my mind and juz letting go... yea... cease all my conjuring tots... because i alr have everything... i have God with me... and thats more than everything alr... i no longer have this fear tat im missing out on sth in life... i can confidently and safely rely on this truth and not having to live life based on my own frail and feeble strength... this is wad i call Peace...

Let Go & Let God
As children bring their broken toys,
with tears for us to mend,
I brought my broken dreams to God,
because He is my friend.
But then instead of leaving Him
in peace to work alone,
I hung around and tried to help,
with ways that were my own.
At last, I snatched them back again
and cried, "How can you be so slow?"
"My child" He said, "What could i do?
You never did let go."

2006-10-16T23:34:00.000+08:00

a few quotes to ponder about :

Each and every individual has his own pros and cons, or what we term as strengths and weaknesses. These pros and cons are well-balanced. You may be lousier at sth but better at another. Thus, dont be disheartened if u fail.

Failure is the mother of success.

Life is like cooking. Initially, the food is frozen. Thus u have to go and cook it. After it is being cooked, it is extremely hot. And after waiting for a period of time, it gets just nice to be eaten. All these happen in this specific sequence. Get it?

When u do sth, give it ur best, otherwise u're simply wasting ur time.

There's no use dwelling on the past mistakes, sure it's easier said than done, but life has to carry on. You can't alter ur past, only ur future. Just ensure u dun commit the same mistake again. That's sheer stupidity.

2006-10-15T23:19:00.000+08:00

woke up at 10 sth this morning only to realise that i was late for my pw mtg... lol... again... im always late for my pw mtgs... sry guys... haha... so it took my quite a while to reach dorcia's hse... new hse.. yea... wow... her place is juz so cool... yea... and its HUGE... lol... very nice place... yep... had 2 bowls of home-made laksa... and it turned out to be delectable... haha... yes... BURP!!! all thanx to my bottomless pit... darn... i really gotta put this bottomless pit to the test... lol... haha... ok... haiz... was contemplating as to whether i should pick up piano lessons... its like quite a number of my friends can play and i got momentarily inspired... wel... dey say its never too late to start... but.. i simply juz cant seem to be able to interpret the notes... haiz... really like piano songs... its juz so mesmerising... yea...

had dinner with my family at great world jack's place... apparently the jack's place replaced the seoul garden dere... yup... and my dad was like encouraging and advising me to strive harder in my academics... despite me having failed once... heard their inspirational stories where they never gave up in the face of failure but instead they continued to work hard... conscientiously... and i rmb wad my dad said... it takes the right attitude and the hardwork to get u somewhere u never expect to be in... i mean... on a positive note... yea... again... i was momentarily inspired to strive harder... only this time it was for my dad... yea... well... my inspirations juz dun seem to be long-lived...

yea wel.. thats about it for today... tata!

You may not be able to change the world system , but salvation in JESUS will change the people in it .

2006-10-14T21:10:00.000+08:00

ok... i dunno where to start... lol... cos alot's going thru my mind... and its not totally bout the fact that im on the verge of retaining... it concerns other matters... yup... all thanx to my randomness... LOL! right... lets c... ok... basically my mind is in a whirl right now? so i cant really recall wad happened today.. well... actually.. nth special happened today... yea... boring eh?

anw... i was pondering to myself regarding several issues :

1) Trust and sharing are two totally different matters.
you shouldnt mix both up. I'm not saying this because i cant be trusted or wad. But im juz trying to say... be wise in the person u choose to confide ur secrets with... yup... you wont want ur comments to be exposed do ya?

2) Sometimes things are nice to look at, but are juz too expensive for us to afford.
haha... u muz be thinking i've been shopping eh? haha... not exactly... i believe this sentence can be applied not only to things but oso to ppl... yup... go figure it out... haha... :P

3) Everyone has a soft side to themselves.
yea... even the nastiest guy on earth has a soft side... i mean... we're humans after all rite.. and we're made to be emotional and all... yea... the catch here is... how you're gonna bring the soft side of a person out... friends may appear to be nasty at times... but they're juz doing it in the name of fun... but inside... they do actually care for u... yup... dey do know how u're feeling in times of despair... yep...

4) Don't judge someone by his/her character, for u never know wad's brewing deep within. Instead look at a person's characteristics.
ok... call it cliche or wadeva... but its really true... think about it... try searching for inner beauty instead of outer beauty... for the benefits of the former will outweigh the benefits of the latter...

5) Every second spent playing on the day before the exams is every second lost for sleeping.
it gets more real the more u dun prepare in advance for exams... trust me...

6) Its better to live every min of ur life to the fullest instead of recollecting the past memories.
oh ya... let me take the chance now to tell u guys to invest in a camera... im serious... cos the benefits u reap exceeds wad u paid for... ;)

7) Success is not permanent and failure is not fatal.

8) Passion is wad drives our lives... without it.. we'll juz be "floating" around.

9) You wont noe u possess sth until u find that u have to acquire that sth.

10) There's nothing we can do abt the past but to appreciate it and learn from it...

oh ya and last but definitely not least... i juz wanna say a big THANKS to all those who really prayed for me... haiz... im juz so sad at the fact that i have to leave my friends if the nightmare comes to life...

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

2006-10-13T01:06:00.000+08:00

right... so i cant seem to sleep... tho its alr like 1 in the morning... and my eyes seem to be proving me wrong... anw... decided to blog... wel... dunno wad to do now anw... yea...

anw... been thinking to myself... and i guess and really really hope i've got it this time... after countless attempts... right... if u have read my previous entries.. u'll probably noe wad im talking abt... so i figured that i should leave any matters pertaining to life totally to God... let Him handle it... i'm simply not up to it... i guess humans arent really sure how they're supposed to live their lives in a meaningful way... they juz go with wad they have? or maybe im wrong... i dunno... i've tot abt this for a considerably long period of time... starting from the middle of my sec 4 days up till today... yea... so i was kinda in a situation that isnt really wad seems to be real... a "testing" period for me... anw... back to wad i was saying... i mean... look at me... i tried formulating a way to lead the most outta life... only to realise eventually that not only did i waste my precious time, u can say i practically screwed my own life... so i guess the perfect person suited for this is none other than Him... darn... wad took me so long to figure that out???

another thing is... i juz dun understand y parents have to nag? y do they have to repeat wad they've said almost everytime? not once, not twice but many times! grr... i simply cant stand nagginess... i mean first of all u're disrupting the peace and secondly, im hearing the same stuff all over again... once said is sufficient... i heard it alright... spare me the agitation... ok i noe im not supposed to whine bout parents and im supposed to cherish them no matter wad the circumstances are... well... im juz speaking my mind... thats all... i still love them... yup...

how long does an average person "emo"? and wad is ur definition of "emo"? i feel like im thinking too much alr... overboard... gotta stop thinking so much and start focusing on reality... lol... lala land... haha!

anw... i hope the "gift" ms chua has will help in promoting me... im not talking bout a physical gift here...

2006-10-12T18:33:00.000+08:00

anw... wassup with comparing? i feel that we humans shouldnt be comparing... i mean there's gotta be a reason why some look better than others... well... thats for God to noe and for us to find out... but hey... look... did tat handsome guy do anything to get tat nice-looking face? or wad did the average-looking gal not do in order to end up with an average face? did they have a choice? i mean... we should only compare sth that is achievable by man... not sth that is beyond our reach... come on... lets put plastic surgery aside now shall we...

ok... on my way home on bus 80, 2 sec skool students boarded the bus... and i knew them... tho i was not sure they knew me not... dey are sec 5 this year... so i tot to myself... wad good is there between a sec 5 and a JC1 retainee? both have wasted a year of their life... cos by right a sec student should graduate at sec 4 and a JC1 student should advance to the next tier... anw... no offense here... but i wont like it if i went on to sec 5 or retained in JC1... i mean... i want to move on... and not lagg behind... this means my life is screwed up... ok... mayb to some it doesnt look screwed up to retain... but from my personal perspective... i simply juz dun like and dun want to retain... the tot of going off mainstream simply irks me... dun ask me y...

Quote of the day :

A man without disappointments is a man without expectations.

2006-10-12T17:20:00.000+08:00

well... another day has passed... and i've gotten back all my results... dun wanna talk bout it... but after all, i mean i deserved it i guess... wel... not exactly actually... some incidents actually took place during the earlier part of the year which kinda diverted me away from wad was more important - my studies... well... perhaps it was a moment's folly that got me carried away... anw... i cant turn back time... no use crying over spilt milk... wad's done cannot be undone...
juz gotta continue from here... i feel so lost... i dunno where to start... where to begin picking up the pieces... probably thats wad refraining me from returning to reality... John! Wake Up! the clock's still ticking... time is passing... but i've come to a standstill... sounds dramatic? well.. it isnt when the exact same thing is happening to u... or rather... me for that matter... chanced upon ms chua(my form teacher) while walking to the foyer... she said she will help put in good words for me... but i have to ask myself this ques... do i really wanna promote or retain? assuming the principle allows me to be promoted that is... i seriously dun wanna waste another year of my life... we're talkin bout a year here alright... not juz 6 mths of wad... but it's necessary to examine wad actually made me fall... i guess it might be me being enthralled in the world of thinking and thinking... reflecting and reflecting... that robbed me of time to attend to other businesses... hmm... i dun rmb experiencing such an appalling encounter as this when i was in sec skool... and i rmb passing most of my subjects... unlike my JC results... so if i could only spend less time thinking and thinking and spend more time studying maybe i'll see a miracle happen... yea... oh ya... another thing.. im not sure if u guys have ever experienced this b4 but there's such a thing as "self-lagging"... which means u juz dun care bout anything alr... even tho everything's still taking place... so its like... ur body's present but ur mind and soul is somewhere else... yea... so i've gotta "unlagg" myself so that i can revert back to my usual self... but its truly easier said than done... cos it has kinda like become ur default mode... usually ppl's default mode is "unlagg"... yup... hope u catch wad im saying... haha...

i feel so guilty not excelling in chemistry... i mean... despite all the hardwork mrs neo has put in and in spite of the chances after chances she gave me (its not veh obvious but i can feel it) i still have not turned over a new leaf... i feel so bad cos she hasnt even chided me once this whole year and apparently i've kinda taken advantage of her soft side... haiz... she's a nice lady... dunno how to face her anymore...

oh ya... another disappointing event that occurred today was that i did below my GP expectation!!! grr... initially i tot it wasnt really a prob... tho i muz admit it was tough... but after i saw my own results with my own eyes, i could barely accept the fact... the horrendous fact... even new was kinda disappointed in me... haiz... wad proved to be promising eventually turned out to be nothing...

anw... after collecting all the papers for the day... the usual group of us went to get our arms jabbed with injection... but not literally jab... yea... the initial sight of the 3 doctors alr sent shivers down our spines... to our horror... we were like going to be jabbed on both arms simultaneously... woa... thats sth new for sure... one jab was for influenza while the other was for hep A... yup... darn... my arms still hurting from the jab... wonder is it supposed to be like tat after u've had a jab?

after the jab... went to help out with the packing of the stuffs for ocip... wow... there was actually quite some stuff donated... pack and pack... after packing... we realised we had alr used up like 10 ah mah bags for storing the stuffs... oh ya... at least im sure im still going for the trip irregardless of whether i retain or not... yup... then we headed to TM to eat crispy chicken... as usual... but this time with lesser chilli... oh ya.. went to try out the Tontoro Pork... not bad... quite nice... feel like eating famous amos cookies... after that... we left for home... took the bus 27 and 80 tis time with MK and nic... still own them 1 more time... no interest!!! haha.. oh that reminds me... i gotta go get the concession...

hmm... i've created a hypothesis today... but im not sure if its true not... i find that ppl who are in the not-so-good skools, dey actually have a heart for ppl... unlike those in the top-notch skools where all they care about is their academics and not really bother bout genuine friendships, etc... i mean... i would rather make friends who sincerely appreciate friendships... and somehow or rather... i find that there is a link between not appreciating friendships and not having a life...

maybe another reason y i was placed in TPJC is because it acts as a cushion to my downfall... imagine if i were to be studying in some good institution... and coupled with the "burden" im carrying... im afraid i might juz find life so much more strenuous and exhausting... and having to suffer a greater degree of severity... in terms of academic... which means i'll most likely be retained...

i shall let His Word do the thinking for me from now onwards... which means entrusting my life to Him... cos i've been foolish enough to lean on my own understanding... which is a far cry from wad God has prepared and planned for me... darn... y din i tink of this much earlier? and as for my part... i'll concentrate on my studies for now... and if i happen to tink again... i'll not take it so seriously anymore...

Think = Processing many tots in ur mind...

Many happenings are orchestrated by satan thru the folly of man, but God has allowed it for a purpose.

2006-10-11T18:18:00.000+08:00

ok... today isnt exactly a day i would like history to repeat... well... who ever likes to go thru the trauma of having to receive ur utterly poor results twice... as if once isnt bad enuff... well... bio had to spoil my day 1st thing in the morning... getting a U isnt exactly fun... especially when it determines ur future... darn... wad the freak... retaining might well be wad i m gonna face... dratz... and going thru another yr of JC1 will juz simply mean wasting another yr of my life... wad good would i be from a poly or MI student? (not discriminating...) wel... really din expect sj to be passing his bio with flying colours... i mean... LOL... haha... the next paper that really shook me was the fact that i actually failed econs... which is apparently my H1 subject... crap... as if thats not bad enuff... i had juz won myself a spot at the top of my class ranking for econs... only it starts at the bottom... lol... grr... 20/50??? i mean... haiz.. i reaped wad i sowed... who else can i blame besides me, myself and I? rite... well... the next paper was rather relieving... got an A for my overall maths... tho my aim was to top the class... haha... haiz... wish i could turn back time and bask in the glory of being some maths pro... haha!! ok... this is so arrogant... haha... but i mean... i really like maths... well... it used to be my sole passion in sec skool... which accounts for the high grades i attained... haiz... hope things change for the better soon... well... these are the papers we got back today... tml's gonna be another round of ups and downs again... but most probably downs... yea... heard from sj that his friend (who is in SAJC) din do well for their promos... well... i guess i shouldnt be too happy even if i get excellent grades here... i mean... TPJC and SAJC... FAR cry... wonder how MO, CK, Iven, etc are doing at SAJC... hmm... well.. juz hope they did well...

well... today was very slack... cos basically the teachers were juz handing out the papers to be checked without going thru the answers... yea... and there were so many breaks today... not to mention the breaks were long, longer than our usual breaks... played bball with the class guys... yea... it'll be such a sad thing if i really retained (CHOY!) and wouldnt get to play bball with these guys again... i mean at least they play sports instead of juz study and study... lol... oh ya... i've gotta blog bout this... grr... today... when it was my turn at the malay stall, the lady told me there wasnt any rice left... dammit!! and im pissed at the fact that im not only famished but also becos it had to be at my turn... and apparently MK and i queued in vain... grr... went round to check the other stalls... no more rice... i mean... WTF? no rice? were the stall vendors like expecting a small crowd today? in the end... we had to settle for fishball noodles... and we had to like hasten our eating cos we were late for the next lesson... or rather period... yea... another pissing fact was that the distributing of econs paper only took up a few minutes.. and we were allowed to leave thereafter... which meant that MK and I ate in such a hurry manner for nothing... argh...

ok... so i got a bday gift from george, mk and nic... of which im not gonna reveal... cos i dun wanna humiliate myself... lol!! but i thank them for saving me the trouble to go get the stuff... lol.. and sparing me of the embarrassment of having to ask my dad for the thing... but i dunno how to use it... lol... haha... oh ya.. MK... how's ur lovey-duvey bolster and pillow... HAHA!! nice one, george and nic... :D

hmm... i wonder when will odac and table tennis resume... lol... have only gone for one table tennis training so far... and u can say odac has had only 1 training too... grr... i'd rather wear the CJC odac shirt... but i guess im not fit too... i mean... literally as well... haha...

anw... gonna take my vaccination in light of the upcoming OCIP trip to Cambodia... yup... cant imagine me taking two injections on the same day... OUCH!! never liked needles... especially when it's gonna be poked into ur flesh... muz rmb to bring health booklet...

for now... im gonna focus on chinese and pw... and not let my mind get distracted with any other matters... musnt let wad happened to my promos happen to my A levels chinese as well as PW... cant take the risk now... wont wanna bear the pain...

haiz... i noe wad exactly caused my downfall... it's me giving up life and losing the drive for life... after a stupid question popped into my mind... i noe it may sound dumb or trivial to u... but this has had impacted my life so great an extent that i have completely undergone a 360 degree change... even i can feel it... and one of the adverse side effects is me declining in my schoolwork... have always tried to search for the formula to living life to the fullest... but my answer never came... till this day... and coupled with the fact that i have always been heavily burdened by this question " How am i to strike a balance between God and meeting the never-ending demands of the world? Where do i draw the line? "... I seriously need any bit of enlightenment i can gather...

haha... tuesday was fun... celebrated MK and amanda's bday tgt... yup... double the fun... haha! went to george's place to have a bbq... had a massive food fight... lol... now that's fun... haha... initially it started out as charcoal "painting"... then it evolved to smearing of cake la... margarine la... and even satay sauce... (peter... sounds familiar? haha...) and everyone got their own little "shower" compliment from everyone... haha... darn... i could feel the water collecting at my underwear la!! thanx to nic... lol... after that... it started to rain... heavily... tat was juz when ms chua arrived at the scene... lol... we den went to george's hse where we played this game Zong1 Zi2 mi4 mah3 (lol... i dunno whether the hanyu pinyin correct not) yea.. and the person who forfeited gets his/her arms drawn with markers... yup... lol... im juz so lucky to be the 1st guinea pig... haha! but it was fun tho... yep... i should consider myself quite lucky alr cos the people sitting beside me were wynne and cheryl... haha... after playing till like 10.15pm... we decided to go home... yup... haha.. all in all... it was a rather fun day... juz tat no one got dunked into the pool... crap... especially MK and amanda.. haha!! anw.. we were alr like drenched to the skin due to the downpour... yea...

ok damn! i've been spending like the past hour or more trying to upload the photos... grr... wads wrong?!?! anw... thanx to those who introed me photobucket... which made life so so much easier... wah...

alritez... here's the photos that i took, or rather michelle (my photographer!! haha...) during the bbq... here goes :

2006-10-10T12:42:00.000+08:00

lol... ok... i have no idea y the idea of wanting to blog keeps surfacing in my mind... anw... woke up this morning with a rather frightening dream... i dreamt of myself reading the paper where the results of the promos were tabulated on... and to my horror, i actually had two of my sciences (H2) failed... which implies im gonna retain!!! crap... and the thing was... the scenario which is still in my head was simply too vivid not to have been forgotten... dratz... dun tell me de javu... anw... muz be the over worrying of the promo results ba... gotta stop worrying but its really easier said than done... worrying is a sin!! yea... so to all of u guys out dere who really cant curb ur worrying... juz tell urself that there's really nth worry can do to improve the situation... but juz create more headaches for u... yup...

right... im supposed to get myself all groomed up... as in... not for some grand event or wad... but juz to make myself look slightly better? been wanting to do that for quite some time alr but juz too lazy to go about doing it... i dun really ask for much tho... yep... ok... so... i've gotta get myself a new hairstyle... still pondering bout which style really suits me... hope the hairstylist does a good job.. lol... next up... is me wearing jeans? lol... i've hardly wore jeans in my life... which is so contradictory to people who have been wearing jeans their whole lifetime... lol... but... do jeans really make u look nicer? or is it ok to stick to boardshorts? which i feel is so much more comfortable... haha... lol... seriously... im a fool when it comes to fashion... would really appreciate some help here... lol... and lastly... i noe i shouldnt be blogging bout this cos i noe many ppl will laugh bout it... i tink i gotta get some lotion to make my face slightly less dark? (DUN LAUGH!!!) cos its really too dark alr.. i feel... haiz... oh ya... gotta change my specs frame cos its alr wearing out and i was tinking maybe its high time to change my specs to white (lol)... liddat contrasting mah... ok... wadeva...

oh ya... gotta get as many photos of class peeps as possible... cos... im gonna embark on a mission... a mission so possible it's impossible... ok... crap... no la... juz wanna create a cd which contains a video of all the photos of me and my class peeps!!! yup... think it'll be so cool... and i've always longed to do this... cos it really gives this "sentimental" feeling... yea...

alritez... guess i gotta stop blogging for now... gotta head to george's hse for the bday party!! yep... wow... time really flies man... can still rmb last fri when we were waiting in anticipation for this day to arrive and tada! it's finally here...

ok... im off!! :D

2006-10-10T01:12:00.000+08:00

ok... this entry is entirely dedicated to my bday... which apparently i havent been able to blog about till now... yup... the things that happened on my bday, starting from 12am onwards... :

(the following are arranged in order and in sequence) :

- heard the news about steve irwin's death
- chatted on the phone with sarah tan and ken soh
- went to skool at 11 to help out with the "ms chua" book (which i only rmb cutting the border for sth) lol...
- got a fhm magazine for my bday as a present (thanx to george and nic) haha... lol... sshh... ah btw ar... i DUN read fhm mags ar... yea...
- got a bday cake from those ard tat day in skool (thanx so much guys!)
- got smashed in e face by nic with a slice of cake
- went for lunch with parents at jack's place
- went home to nap for 2.5hrs
- went to meet sean (working) at watson's hougang mall with jon neo
- went to the wrong place and got jagged (LOL!!!)
- waited for quite some time b4 sean could leave
- went to a chinese restaurant in new park hotel which is located in farrer park
- had ala carte buffet dinner which was heavily subsidised by uncle kk
- went home and chatted on msn till 12 am while counting down to the end of my bday
- chatted with ken soh and sarah tan till bout 3+am e next morning

well... that's how my 17th bday was spent... i hope it was worthwhile...

oh... b4 i leave... i've conjured a list of things u could actually do for bdaes!

- spend $$$ (aka shopping)
- hanging out wif friends
- eating (burp!)
- catching a movie
- going to the beach
- pool, bowling, etc (quite normal tho...)
- grab a few pals and go to some1's hse to chill, order pizza and juz have a movie marathon at the hse
- check out the interesting places in S'pore
- organise a bday party for some1's bday
- lastly, have loads of fun and feel happy! =)

2006-10-09T23:39:00.000+08:00

right... so i figured the "Title" box doesnt actually work... well.. guess im finally here... bloggin' alr... cant believe im actually doing this... haha... m i suppose to feel happy? lol... wow.. i guess this marks the beginning of something great that is to come... yea... haha... i hope.. lol.. man... im making this sound so prestigious when its juz some other blog... ok wadeva... hmm... where m i gonna start? well... basically the main reason y i wanted to start a blog is becos i felt it is a good platform where i can really pour out my heartfelt feelings and tots... yea... and basically its bout putting down the events in ur life in black and white... which would ultimately sum up to a book... yea... life's a book... ur book... my book... it's really how well u wan ur book to be written... sounds familiar? (natasha bedingfield - unwritten) thats y i named my blog "mystory-mybook-mylife" yup... well... me writting the first entry of this blog aint gonna happen again... wel.. tats y dey say some things in life only occur once... and its such incidences that we should really cherish... ok... crap... gettin too emo here...

anw... i chose this skin for my blog cos i really like to be simple... and orange is my favourite colour!! yep... actually... i feel that the main objective of a blog is its entries... not so much on the decorative aspect... yup... but decorations do really help to liven the blog up... haha... ok... enuff of thrash talk... lol...

well... im really kinda scared of the promo results... cos i can frankly say i din do my best... of which i could have attained if not for my darn procrastination... im kinda like a person who plans everything out nicely... but the problem comes in when i dun execute wad i've planned... that's my major prob... grr... so well of cos there's this fear of retaining... darn... since when have i feared such a fear... little did i expect this to happen... who ever tot of retaining in sec skool and pri skool? lol... i dun wanna waste another yr of my life man... duhz...

Chinese A levels is round the corner... tho it may seem kinda far from now... trust me... time really flies when u take ur eyes away from the clock... beta start revising now and not let my procrastination get the beta of me this time... OH... did i mention pw.. wa... thats another major headache... not forgetting on top of that i still have SL and OCIP!!! oh man... hols? yea rite....

anw... in the midst of my 'hectic' schedule... i ought to relax and let my hair down... right? well... gonna grab some huge eaters and go on a food hunt... yay! any intro for great buffet places with affordable prices??? den i shall indulge in anderson's ice cream.. haha.. beta use the voucher before it expires.. is anderson ice cream nice? after that.. gonna head to the Wallet Shop to grab wadeva catches my attention cos.. my Wallet Shop vouchers gonna expires soon... wow.. guess everything fits... haha... incentives to relax after promos... tho i still feel i dun deserve to be relaxing... at all...

right... woke up at 9.20am today... den headed to Hougang Sports Hall to have a game of badminton with MK and blackie (nic).. haha... and i had to play on an empty stomach (oh if u havent heard bout it... im like always hungry... no idea y but yea... lol...) hafta say a big THANX to sheena for lending me her badminton racket... haha.. i feel so honoured using it... haha!! and i still have yet to return it to her... haha.. hope ya dun mind... :D anw... met hanpin ( my SRJC 1st 3 mths orientation group friend ) at the sports hall... wow.. was kinda surprised.. haha.. cos i din expect him to be 1) playing badminton and 2) at Hougang sports hall... yup... anw.. heard dere's gonna be a sparta zeta chalet... hmm... any updates?? didnt really play tat well cos my hand was still slightly hurting from the previous game of badminton last fri... yea... tat time george was present... after that... when to hougang mall to have lunch... had satay beehoon... oh my.. so unhealthy la.. "harm" la... liver la... i dunno.. juz gives me e impression its not healthy food.. lol... after lunch, we headed to grab a cup of bubble tea each... and dammit... some nan chiau gal stared and told us off by saying that we cut her queue... pls la... we're not unethical ppl... she's like standing at the side of the counter and we're suppose to noe that she's in the queue? wadeva.... had crispy chicken (as usual) and we took 27 to tampines.. along the way... i had some difficulty trying to drink my bubble tea (MK and nic... u guys beta watch out!!!) haha... we went up the bus with our food, happily thinking we could eat in peace... little did we expect a man in light green uniform (bus conductor) to board the bus!! darn it!! of all buses and of all time... and according to MK and blackie.. this is the 1st time it happened and this was the 1st time i was boarding a 27... juz my luck... luckily i finished the crispy chix but i had to so called hide my bubble tea... argh... y muz he board e bus??? thruout the whole journey i had no choice but to halt my drinking... grr...

so we had our OCIP mtg.. yea.. from 215 to ard 5pm... man... logistics aint fun ya noe... anw... after the mtg.. e 3 of us took 81 home... argh... i feel so guilty having them to board 81 with me... okok... i promise i will sit 27 with both of u TWICE... only twice ar... no more wan less oso can.. lol... haha... along the journey... i tink some1 was angry at me... cos i din live up to my reputation being a friend... especially when they've done their part... well... i inferred that from the naunces of the tone he used... call me sensitive or wad... but im not sure if my hypothesis is true or not... ok... anw... i dun tink he's that kinda petty actually... i hope...

oh ya.. now i noe y i have not been placed in SAJC... its all planned out.. and now i've finally seen it... well... after reading iven's blog... i'm rather convinced that he's more comfortable with christianity and the rest of my SAS friends... well.. i guess God's using this as a way to change and make a difference in the lives of these people... which is good... yea... i mean.. the chrisitian culture/atmosphere in SAJC could well be used for evangelism... yup... u neva noe... haha... another reason is i guess its time to start acting like an ambassador for Christ? especially in an environment where the Christian culture isnt so rich yet... yea...

well... that about wraps up wad i wanted to say... yea... looking forward to today when we would really have fun "torturing" MK... haha!! actually.. any1 could be the next target... it all works beneath the surface... hope u noe wad i mean.. yup... before i go... i'll leave a quote for today...

Live every moment of ur life to the fullest, not forgettin the people around u. Some things tat are lost simply cannot be retrieved in life, so dun regret. :D